Saturday, November 19, 2005
?@&*!
*i was able to go out again last thursday after,well, a month of not being able to do so...
*went to sm manila to dine out with some special people...hehe...bought gifts for our friends who celebrated and will celebrate their birthday...
*wasn't able to follow drake, ross and pao at Government...sorry guys...my batt got low...wasn't able to contact you guys...sorry again...(sheepish smile!)...sure you had fun...too bad for me...
*was able to talk to josh for quite some time...hehe...i'm just a bit nervous 'coz it would reflect on my bills...i hope nobody gets to open my bills at home...if not...i just don't know what's gonna happen...
*will either go to bulacan or spend an overnight with friends next week...i'll probably file for a one day leave...
*will not be able to sleep tomorrow, got an affair to attend to the whole day then head to work right after...good luck to me...
*not really on the mood to write the rundown of events...i guess, i have to make it up on my next post...and before i forget, just want to greet dave a happy birthday on the 21st...love you pasaway!!!
the angel in disguise
is simply gorgeous writing at 5:29 AM
Sunday, November 06, 2005
damn boring...and some thoughts under lucid interval...
yep, it's a sunday today - a boring sunday...i've got fewer calls but we are only two agents on the floor...i don't know what it is that sundays have that i hate when this day of the week arrives. In fact, i don't like my rest days to fall on this day.hohumm...it just feels so boring..
my current favorite song is craig david's "I just Don't Love you no more"...i love hearing it over and over...in fact, my radioblog's flooded with this song and i never get sick of hearing it...basta, love it!!
i've read arnold's blog, and i was moved by his entry "up and over". I mean, I also experience sudden loneliness at times for no reason...i mean, i would suddenly feel lonely without knowing the reason why i am in such state.weird i guess, however, i think people would always at one point feel this way...after reading arn's entry, i looked back at what had happened in my life...i realized i did so many sacrifices, be it big or small...my life had been a struggle for me, not knowing where and whom to cling on to at times i feel like i am deep down under.. yes i can say, i have my friends but it's a different thing knowing that you have a family that will be by your side whatever the weather will be...my life has been a topsey turvey roller coaster ride for me i guess, experiencing so much pain at such an early age...my mom when she was still alive would always tell me to be strong whatever will happen to me, i just have to believe that i am...and i guess that is what i did the entire sojourn i have been up to...i may have tripped off alot of times, committing a lot of mistakes, but what's important is that i've learned from it and if ever i'll be doing that same mistake again, at least i know how to handle it, as they say, i now have my safety gears...sudden rush of memories keep flooding me now...sad and happy ones...but i am proud to say that i am a tougher and stronger person now...i may have experienced so many difficulties in life but i considered those as pieces of puzzle that would complete my happiness, it may be absurd to say that i find happiness in encountering hardships, but everytime i succeed in overcoming those, i feel happy and fulfilled...just as what my mom told me, i should be strong, and yes i am...i know i will still be experiencing a lot, but i guess, i am armed with enough guts and strength to face whatever it may be, my experience had indeed taught me to treasure whatever life has to offer me 'cause somehow it adds spice to one's life...
Having experienced those, i guess, i can say that it somehow made me grow up a bit faster...i have to put all my barbie dolls aside and face real dolls - people of all sort...i have met so many people who eventually became my friends and enemies as well...they may have hurt me and i may have hurt some of them too, but i believe they have somehow contributed to what i am now...there were people whom i thought would always be there but vanished when i needed them the most and there were also those people whom i never imagined to help me iron out my mess but stood by me on trying times...backstabbers, pretentious, users- i met almost all of them...despite all those,what makes me break down in happiness with tears is that I have got all their memories , through those times that I've lost them, the memories still linger in my heart..the joys and cheers, the hurt and the fears...I've carved every good thing we all once had on rockhard stone, and all the bad ones on the sand by the seashore where the waters can ravel on them to take 'em all away....i just realized life is too short to live with anger and deceit and to be mean to others...
as of the moment, i can honestly say that i am not so happy with my life, there are certain things i find hard to understand, however- i just keep going so that if ever i'd be looking back again, i won't be having regrets...All i can say is that i was and am strong--yes i am...
this is me - that is when i am under lucid interval...memories just keep on pouring out...savor it...it rarely happens..
the angel in disguise
is simply gorgeous writing at 7:29 AM
Wednesday, November 02, 2005
some sort of a crap!
can't think of anything interesting to post in my blog right now, but i want to update it...i've already scanned blogskins.com since i also want to edit its skin, but unfortunately, wasn't able to find any...so sad...
i went to visit my mom in the cemetery despite the argh! so heavy rain...'twas okay nonetheless...wasn't able to visit my pop since i have no freakin' idea where he was laid. okay, i know where he was laid, in batangas, but for crap's sake, i hardly have an idea on where in batangas it was...phew!!!but if it's for any consolation, i prayed for him...
last monday, i wasn't able to sleep for the entire day, ended up sleeping during my shift...here's why...i went home from work at around 9 in the morning, ate breakfast, then after some time, i decided to doze off to sleep...there should've been no problem until just after a few minutes, one of our helpers woke me up to tell that another helper, who happened to have borrowed some amount of money from me left our house...what's irritating is that she woke me up when that f*ckin helper of ours is already gone!!!my point is, if she wants to leave, that's fine...but MY GAWD!!, the amount of money she borrowed from me is no joke!!!okay, it's not a very big an amount but with the prices of commodities nowadays and my luxuries, even a single peso counts...she is indeed a crap!!!well, wait til her karma arrives..i know it will soon come...and if that happens, that's the time i can say we are even...can't help it, i am so pissed off...after that, i wasn't able to go back to sleep already...i decided to follow my cousins in the cemetery...i was able to arrive there at 3:30 pm...had some chit chat with cousins i haven't seen for quite some time already...every holiday has been our sort of bonding since most of them have no works on holidays...so sad i have...
we decided to leave the cemetery at around 7 pm since we will still be going somewhere else...but unfortunately, after eating our dinner, they decided to drop me at the office, then afterwards, they'll be going to libis...too bad for me, i have to be stucked in the office while all of my cousins are having fun!!!!argh!
while i was in the office, i felt that i really needed to at least have a few minutes of sleep since i am really not feeling so comfortable not being able to sleep for one whole day and something irritating transpired. i was able to doze off to sleep at work, and just when i was having a great time being able to steal a few minutes of it, somebody woke me up!!!!gosh, it was my supervisor,oopps, my former supervisor, i should say, who happens to be my "you know"...hehe...apparently, he was waking me up for quite some time already before i was able to wake up...guess, 'twas one of the nicest slumbers i had...*wink*wink*
i am feeling overly happy these past few days...i am inspired to do things, my life's running smoothly, nobody is ruining my mood, and yes i am in love, very much!...hehe...i know, it wouldn't be forever that i'll have this rainbow colored life, but i just hope that if it would not be forever that way, i am hoping that i can handle it...in the meantime, let me just savor the happiness...
this coming friday, i'll be heading to bulacan with some people out there...and i am sure it will be so much fun again...just can't wait, i'm excited...hehe...
just want to greet one of my teammates, candy a very happy birthday!!!candz, goodluck sa PS Idol! Teehee!!
i am now on graveyard shift, 10 pm - 7 am...not normal but i'm okay with it...i am now adjusted with my schedule and with the volume of calls i am receiving...i am now under another sup, sup carrie this time...hehe...so happy with my account, it's just like we are not working 'cause we are really having so much fun inspite of a lot of irate callers...and by the way, i just had a call last night for 30 minutes!!!!well, he kept on ranting about his billing address which he changed some 4 years ago...damn him!!!sup call na nga yun, tas he didn't give my sup the chance to talk...ang nasabe lang namen pareho, alright, alright, i understand...pisti ah!!!god bless him na lang...
i always have fun whenever i'm on my way home together with my offcie/bus mate ross...we always end up laughing over something or somebody...it's not our intention to make fun over somebody, but whenever we are on our way home, there is something happening...and just this morning, we remembered krung krung and all her kagagahan which made us really laugh...my gawd, how we miss that krung krung!!!hehe...
i had a dream kanina,'twas nice...hehe...kainis nga lang, my cousin woke me up in the middle of my very beautifule dream...i have to wake up na daw to get ready for work...grr!!!if he only knew!!!i could've screwed his neck...hehe...
guess this is it for this post...i'll try to update this as often as i can and as long as there are no qeueing of calls...hehe...holiday's fast approaching so americans keep calling to order their stuff online...argh!!
the angel in disguise
is simply gorgeous writing at 6:32 AM
