Wednesday, May 17, 2006
Been from my rest days...was able to sleep well, thank goodness, i thought di na ako tao eh, natutulog pa din pala ako...Last Monday, I had some sort of misunderstanding with one of my friends. I am really feeling mad with the way they are treating us after that night in Malate so I decided to confront him. He actually explained his side...In fairness, we managed to settle it and I also apologized for being that straightforward to him.
These past few days, rain kept pouring the whole of Metro Manila. It's not that I hate it when it's raining, it's just that memory keeps on flooding me..call me emotional or whatever, but this kind of weather gives me those emotional boo-boos...it made me think of so many stuff, including what if's..yay!also, this weather makes me ride a cab always...FYI: I am not the sosyal type of person, but I just need to ride a cab these past few days since I am always late waking up or the rain's pouring really hard...gawd!I still have two weeks before payday!!!
Emotional turmoil is hitting me once again...and i am having a hard time deciding over things...just last Monday, I indulged into something I now regret doing...right now, i am in love but i don't know what to do...shall i follow whats right or shall i follow what my heart is dictating?
for-he-who-must-not-be-named:
i hate you for being like that..
for being caring..
for being always there..
for being a shoulder to cry on..
for making me feel special..
i hate everything you are doing to me..
it only makes me fall for you even harder when i know i shouldn't be..
i don't want to lose you but i also don't want to lose a friend..
mommy lei, mother liz, mother gos, arn and me were able to buy some cadbury chocolates for a cheaper amount of moolah...it was indeed yumyum!!hehe
I was able to read these quotes from a site in the internet...i think these quotes speaks well of how i am feeling right now...argh!
"You hug him good-bye like it's nothing... while all you want to do is hold on forever...but you let go, smile and walk away... then cry all the way home because you know it will never be the same... because try as you might you can't make someone love you, sometimes you have to let them be free... and letting go, that is when love hurts the most of all."
"To let go isn't to forgot, not to think about, or ignore. It doesn't leave feelings of anger, jealousy, or regret. Letting go isn't about winning or losing. It's not about pride and it's not about how you appear, and it's not obsessing or dwelling on the past. Letting go isn't blocking memories or thinking sad thoughts, and doesn't leave emptiness, hurt, or sadness. It's not about giving in or giving up. Letting go isn't about loss and it's not about defeat. To let go is to cherish the memories, but to overcome and move on. It is having an open mind confidence in the future. Letting go is learning and experiencing and growing. To let go is to be thankful for the experiences that made you laugh, made you cry, and made you grow. It's about all that you have, all that you had, and all that you will soon gain. Letting go is having the courage to accept change, and the strength to keep moving. Letting go is growing up. It is realizing that the heart can sometimes be the most potent remedy. To let go is to open a door, and to clear a path and set yourself free."
yay!life sucks!
the angel in disguise
is simply gorgeous writing at 3:17 AM
