Sunday, March 26, 2006
The past week had been a stressful one for all of us. I don't know if our transferring from the other wing made it more stressful for us. Yay!One of my teammates and close friend/romantic partner had a sort ofargument with another teammate. And since she cannot post what she wants to say on her blog, with her permission, I am posting her side of the story here.
I was in the office with this co-worker who, I guess, because of such a stressful week had somehow lost her sanity (I hope it's not a premanent damage).
After I've gone back from my 15 min. break, I noticed that somebody had changed the chair that I have been sitting on for some hours. So I went to ask who did it, it wasn't JR, nor Jerome, who had always been switching our chairs. After a while this freakin loser called on to me and with an attitude she said it was her who did it. I asked her why, (JR, giving me this hand gesture to calm down) she yelled, "THIS IS MY CHAIR! I WAS THE ONE WHO PULLED THIS FROM THAT CORNER, SOMEBODY JUST SWITCHED IT DURING MY BREAK." Hearing that, I flipped out.. man, I was sooo freakin pissed coz this loser was trying to bitch me up. Why the fuck would I switch my chair with the one that was already occupied? This bitch was like saying that I aint got some manners. Man, she doesn't have the slightest idea how it's like getting to my bitch side. I tell you this, I can be your nicest friend, but if you mess with me I can be as bitchy as I could get. We had a huge argument that night over such a small thing. And although our supervisor had talked to us, this pathetic bitch hasn't seen the rest of me yet. You know what they say, NEVER START SOMETHING YOU CAN'T FINISH!
Hey you BIATCH, better get your facts straight first... Let me guess, you had the worst experience playing TRIP TO JERUSALEM when you were a kid. I can tell by how you wailed over the loss of "YOUR CHAIR". Dang bitch, you better GROW UP so you can catch up with your AGING boyfriend. HOnestly, I thought he was your grandfather when I saw your family picture, then I figured it was your boyfriend coz he wasn't Asian (my bad).
NEWSFLASH... DRAKE HAS GOT SOME NEWS FOR YOU ABOUT "YOUR CHAIR". You might want to talk to him when you get back from your days off so you will be enlightened.
And like I always say... I don't care what you say or think about me. This is me... to some, this is how they spell my name ---> B-I-T-C-H. I'd rather be called BITCH than someone's LITTLE ASIAN WHORE!
life is a bliss, taste it. life is a struggle, overcome it. life is a challenge, meet it.
life is a game, play it. life is life, live it, love it, fight for it.
-ROSS
"...love like you've never been hurt"
I am in no position to judge what happened. but I guess, one need not to let her depression get into her relationship with her teammates. I understand Ross' point when she said that she thinks that what she is trying to insinuate is that Ross' doesn't have manners...my!!!but wait, I think I've got one point in mind, doesn't it have something to do with her seeing us - Ross, Igle and me, talking with each other and Igle sitting right in her chair?Oh well, life...
This blog is also open to air the other side. hehe..
I think the coming week will be more stressful than the other week had been. From 5th floor, we will be transferring to the 3rd floor...yay!movement...
Two more weeks to go before my Baguio getaway!
the angel in disguise
is simply gorgeous writing at 7:31 AM
Thursday, March 23, 2006
Status: Undefined...Confused...Heartbroken...for the nth time...
the angel in disguise
is simply gorgeous writing at 9:09 AM
Saturday, March 18, 2006 the angel in disguise
is simply gorgeous writing at 7:14 AM
Sunday, March 05, 2006 the angel in disguise
is simply gorgeous writing at 6:45 AM
Sometimes the most important thing that we get from a relationship is not the guarantee of permanence but the lesson that we learn when it fails.
It has almost been a week after my grandmom's burial but i still can't revert to my usual routines. i guess it has not yet sunk in to my system...but yay!!!i know i have to move on, move on and move on...
yes, at long last, i was able to sort out the things of my grandmom...it was hurting on my part seeing all her things but nobody can do it aside from me...i set aside all her things with heavy heart and only that time did i realize that i miss her so much..i guess, that's one of life's ironies, you will be able to realize one's worth when they're gone - when it's too late...
we had been into going out with my family lately...i guess, we just have to catch up on the things we missed when my tito was in Canada...we go to places that we feel like going at the spur of the moment...on the sides of course, is shopping for pasalubongs for my cousins...he still have a few more days left here before he goes back to Canada, so we have to make the most out of it.
tomorrow, march 19, my tito's going to celebrate his birthday...and honestly, i still don't know what to give him...i know no material value can replace what he did for me - he was the one who acted as my parent when my own parents died and when my grandmom got sick.i know he also made so many sacrifices just for me...there came i time that i was really on the verge of giving up but he never left my side...and for that, i'm so thankful to him...he was the one who gave me hope when i thought nothing else in my life will be right. he sticked with me even if almost the rest of the world kept criticizing me - saying all nasty things about me...that is when i realized also that whatever happens, i know the person to whom i will run to...tito jo, thank you ssoooo much for everything, for being a dad, an uncle and a friend..thanks also for always understanding me, i know you've done so much for me....and i may not always tell it to you, but god knows how i love you and how grateful i am to him for giving you to me...happy birthday tito joey and cheers to a lot more years to come...umm, ill try to keep my promise not to get married yet...hehe..kisses!!
also tomorrow, it'll be ej's recognition...i'm so excited about it...you see, i'm so fond of kids and hearing them sing songs that really touches one's hearts makes me knock down on my knees....aaaaaawwwwww!!!!!!hehe...if i can, ill post some pics...til my next post!
I was also able to attend the birthday celebration of a friend, Mark last February i don't remember the date. We had an overnight with some friends and we really had a great time. Was also able to talk to Josh that time. Also it was during this month that I was able to do the most stupid thing I could ever imagine myself doing. I don't want to elaborate much on things but the bottomline is that it was just because of a guy i thought was worth of my tears but turned out, well not worthy. This was also the month my supervisor, Ia left for a training in Seattle. It was so sad her leaving us but I guess, she, grabbing the opportunity is a good decision.
My grandmother was hospitalized and unfortunately, she didn't make it. She was hospitalized for like, four days, three days in still a conscious state, but on the fourth day, she fell into a deep coma. It was indeed tragic seeing her die in front of me. A lot of people told me that my lola was just waiting for me to let go of her, which definitely was hard onmy part. You see, I was with my lola since I was a child, since my dad died when i was just a kid and my mom had to work. Then when my mom died, she was the one who became my parent. Admittingly though, I had a few instances of stubborness, but the fact remains that i love her so much. So I talked to her, even if it was very hard to let go of her, I told her thjat I'm already okay and she can now rest. I know she was already tired with her 5 years battle with diabetis and all its complications. I cried really hard when the respirator monitor showed 0 heartbeat. I thought it was all just a dream and the moment I wake up from my sleep, I will be able to see my lola again, but it was not. Until now that she was already laid to rest, I can still hear her voice and still miss her so much - so so much...she had been everything to me, my grandmother, my mother, my friend...I know she is in a better place right now and I am happy for her. As for me, I just need some more time to be able to accept these things because as of this moment, I haven't accepted it yet.
Because of this incident, there was some good things that were able to happen. For one, the entire family was able to be gathered all again for the first time after so many years...it's nice to see faces whom we haven't seen for the longest possible time. My tito also came from Canada and will be staying here until the 3rd of April...
With this, I would just like to thank all people who mourned over the loss of my lola...thank you so much...words aren't enough to express my family's sincerest appreciation to you guys. Just by being ther, you have proven to us that whatever the weather will be, true friends really last...You know guys how much I love you so so much and it will be forever that way...in the meantime, i'm taking things slowly...
