i am an angel in disguise

yada yada yada..

2006-07-31T04:31:00.000-07:00

it has been exactly a week since i am not on speaking terms with somebody. admittedly it's hard on my part since there is no way that i won't be seeing that person.but sometimes, i'm thinking, what happened was a wake up call for me to do something..

POINT 1:
I have been thinking of living independently for the longest time already but i have not yet gathered ample guts to do it. i have always been complaining that i'm sick and tired of how my life is being run by other people yet i am doing no way to resolve it. With what had happened, i was able to realize that i have long been living my life like a prisoner, one that needs to ask permission everytime they'd go out for some time, and the answer would still depend on them.

POINT 2:
Never was there a time I was able to decide for myself completely, there would always be the "consideration" of my folks, and if they won't allow me, poor me...i was able to come up to the thought that i am quite old enough to decide things for me..whatever the outcome would be, positive or not, the blame would all be on me, it's my choice, ergo, i'd be the one to suffer.

POINT 3:
If I would just want to, i could have filed for invasion of privacy for them intruding my privacy. everything should pass to them first, phone calls screened or at worst scenarios, they are on the extension phone listening, mobile phone callers are asked what they need, what i did with my money and stuff like that..really, it kinda suck already..

POINT 4:
i really did not intend to take Polsci as my course but since they wanted it for me, so off i went. even if my interest at first was not lined up for the said course, i set my mind to love it, and eventually i did. it's a good thing that i was able to learn to love it, because if not, i would have heard so much from them again.

POINT 5:
What I did was for them such a big deal..they won't let me go out of the comfort zone they have fenced me with yet they are afraid that i might still do it. they call me stubborn for not heeding them always but what can i do, this is me, so i need no comparison..they are afraid that i might indulge into something that would put them to shame, gawd!sometimes, i still do have lucid interval run into my nerves.

sometimes, a lot of what if's are coming into my mind..what if my parents were still here, what if i did this before, what if i went on with me being the rebellious kid that i was once, what if i care less of what impression will my actions imply...what if, my life is still as happy and as enjoyable as the life i had before..a lot of what ifs..but i know i can never go back to the same old days...

a friend of mine told me that i know what the best thing is.she even told me that still being there is no loger healthy for me. my mind's so crowded with a lot of things.i wanted to flare up..cry..say what i want..but i am sick and tired of not being heard..and if by doing so, i would still seem disrespectful of them..if not for the people who continously gives me pieces of advice and are helping me overcome this, i could have lost my sanity.over the weekend, i was completely decided on not going home anymore.it's not that they want me out of the house already, but if i would still be staying there, i don't know what's gonna happen since it seems to them that i am not existing..if not for the talk i had with some people that day, i could have been somewhere over there..believe me, this feeling sucks!

up to now, i am still in a state of "no-whereness", if there is such a word..i don't know what's gonna happen tomorrow, the day after tomorrow, the week after, argh!it's a pain in the ass..until now, i wanted to cry..flare up..move out..but i simply can't..i have to be tough, even if i'm weak, laugh even if i'm crying inside,go on with life although it's hard..i know that life is not always happy but i think what i am into is, somehow, going beyond overboard..

A birthday and an anniversary..

2006-07-25T08:36:00.000-07:00

Last July 24th, my blog marked its first year anniversary...i can't believe that i had been bugged by this blogging thing for over a year now. you see, this blog had been an avenue of my feelings, be it joys, pains, heartbreak and all..it is where i pour out what i am feeling and what my views are in respect of a certain idea.So to my dear blog, I am still looking forward to a lot more years of blogging..

On a lighter note, my cousin Cliare celebrated her 18th birthday at Jade Palace. It was indeed a celebration since family memebers that we expected really came despite the heavy rain. It was also a bit dramatic since when Claire's parents' expressed what they want, everybody can't help but feel sad..you see, we don't know until when will claire be with us, doctors say that she will live only until 18, and she is already 18, so fear is always with us..but hopefully, with God's grace, things will turn out well.

Anyway, July 28th is my mom's birthday, sadly she's no longer with me...sheesh, i really miss my mom, i may have been stubborn to her when she was alive, but i love her dearly.aside from my grandmom, she was the only one who understands my moodswings. Right now, I don't know how it feels like to have a mom and have bonding moments with her. It's like I have already missed half of my life not having my mom around me...she died when i was in first year highschool so i really didn't get the chance to have mother-daughter bonding with her...god!if onlyu i can turn back the hands of time..the last memory i had with her was an advance birthday card from her when i celebrated my 13th birthday. she gave it to me a few days before she died and told me that she don't know if she'll still be aroung by my birthday on september...it read: "to the most wonderful daughter i have, always remember that mom loves you so much..wahtever happens...i'll miss you..take care of yourself..mom"..Yay!Mom,I know you are in a better place right now, but sometimes, I still question why this has happened to me...I am so alone right now...I need your hug and your soothing words..i love you so much..happy birthday..

sleepless

2006-06-20T23:03:00.000-07:00

i have been here at home since this morning yet i cannot get some sleep. i was supposed to attend school today but again, wasn't able to since my tita left me here stucked up with my two younger and bratty cousins to look to because, as she says, she'll be fixing some sort of crap..With so much happening right now, i really cannot say if i can still endure the pressure of juggling so many tasks...hohumm...can't think of what i am gonna do with all these...my out of lucid interval mind is telling me again to quit schooling...argh!shame on me!

as what i mentioned in my last post, i am on a new shift already..i can say it's a less pressuring sched yet still pressuring on my part...chaotic right?- that's how i can best describe my life right now - a total mess and chaos..

by the way, out of having nothing to do, i changed the skin of my blog for the nth time...wala lang...i'm so bored and pissed off..

...

2006-06-20T05:52:00.000-07:00

been on hiatus for quite some time...admittedly, a lot has transpired during the times i was not blogging..probably, i was just too tired to blog that often anymore. i don't know, i am at this point where my mind's going gaga over a lot of things burdened by so many pressures form, let's say, outside forces. anyway, i was supposed to post an entry last week about somebody who, again, for the nth time, used her heart over her mind...but i'm glad to know that she was able to recover from it...

How would you feel when that is the only answer you could get from your guy when you ask him why he wants you to let go of him?I did not intend to cry in the office, neither did I intend to coincide it with one of my supervisor's leaving. In fact, I tried to act as bubbly as I can but the moment that it crossed my mind and the thought has already sunk in, can't help but shed off my tears. You see, I've been in some turbulent relationships already, some of those were even not approved by my uncles and aunt but who cares!I admit, I am sometimes out of my mind when I fall in love...

Anyway, as if i'm not yet satisfied with the week's going, I lost my fone and money. I wont go into so much details already but the bottomline is that I am just pissed off with people who can easily get away with stealing. sure, because of the need to survive, peeople tend to do all sort of things. but heck! not at other people's expense...sad thing, some inconsiderate people around me would not want to believe in what happened. gawd! they would also say that probably i would just not want to share in the household's expense..haller!!!!god bless her ass!!

anyway, i am in a new shift again, 7 pm - 4 am...hay, buhay graveyard na naman...well, it's relaxing though since my rest days fall on weekends..

i still have so much in my mind but i can not think of it clearly, it's as if the thoughts are racing to come out of my mind...heck!my mind's in pain...argh!

Random thoughts on a boring Friday evening..

2006-05-26T05:20:00.000-07:00

I wasn't able to go home this morning. I won't be able to come in on time if I still went home. I accompanied my cousin in enrolling. We had so much fun only if that freakin' lady at the principal's office did not send us to and fro the high school and college department saying that my cousin still have an unpaid balance...my gulay!we were presenting the receipt already and they don't want to honor it. I asked them if there are other options aside from going to the college depaertment since it would take some time before we could go there, and their excuse was, there were no people in the accounting office to contact, and they are sick and were in the clinic...my!imagine how lame their excuse was...in the end, we were able to find out as soon as we went there that thae freakin' lady was just too lazy to coordinate with them since there were actually so many personnels there and they are not "sick"..gawd!their enrolment system really suck...

Anyway, moving on, we met up with my coochie...nothing important really...we just missed each other that's why we met. He even handed me something coming from his brother, my bestfriend..I wasn't really expecting that present to be given, but at the same time, I was so touched by what he did since after some time of not being in speaking terms, we were able to patch things up....thanks, markdaniel...

The following post should've been posted a few days ago if only Mang Max is up and running...but i'll be posting it anyway..

We're off in our new building already...feeling okay...it's just that we're having a hard time going up and down of it...we're on the 31st floor so you could just imagine the time that can be wasted...anyway, it's a good thing though since we are actually located in an area that is "hidden" from almost everything.."neverneverland" is what you can call it. yay!well, we just have to get used to it..

Last Sunday, we went to Ross' place again to have bonding moments. I was with Rodney and Jayar. It was so nice to at least once in a while have such kind of get together...was able to leave the place at around six in the morning.

I met up with my tita to accompany her to buy stuff for my cousin's debut...she was hours late...grrr!!!she made up naman for it when she bought stuff for me eh...After that, we went to fetch my cousins since they will be staying at home for two days. Was able to arrive home at 7 pm..

As soon as we arrived home, I have to cook some food pa since our maid left for their province. And by the way, good news is that I already know how to cook rice, hindi yung hilaw, as in yung rice talaga na pwedeng kainin, and that is one thing i'm really proud of...the first time kase na i cooked rice, grabe, para shang lugaw and i tell you, pinagtiyagaan lang talaga kainin ng mga cousins ko..hehe..

During my cousin's two day stay at home, we had so much fun...What we did during those days were to chat, eat, watch, text...But it was indeed fun since it made us really closer..i'm still looking forward to so many night outs as well as fun with them...

guess this is it for this post,it's getting cold here already in my station ...i just need to get a break to warm myself...hehe..

Our company will be holding its annual summer getaway from work tomorrow and on Sunday at Island Cove in Cavite.Too bad, I can't come since I'll be having my shift on those days...I'm sure I'll be dying of jealousy once they brag about the fun as well as their pics..But anyway, I wish my friends fun...geez!

dang!

2006-05-18T00:25:00.000-07:00

news had been spreading that we will be transferring again to a different building...yay!i'm glad to see old friends there but it's really a hassle...dang!if we only have a choice.

i had a night bonding with my cousins...we just chatted all night long and surf the net...we talked about life, love, school, sex, and anything that triggers their interest...i don't know but it's a wonderful feeling to at least bond with them once in a while...it's just that sometimes i feel too old since they are asking those stuff from me...err, as if i'm an expert eh?hehe..

wasn't able to sleep today since my cousin was rushed to the hospital because of seizure...according to the doctors, she'll be confined for a few days since they'll be conducting series of tests as well as MRI.With this, I have filed for PTO for tomorrow since i'll be th one staying in the hospital with her.

guys will always be guys!with all that they have been telling us, expect that almost all of those are lies...sheesh!sometimes, it would be hard for us to believe in them already...if only they would have the guts and courage to be honest with us, hay, eh di sana walang problema...

i'm almost done giving testimonials to my friends in my friendster's list...hehe..it has been my past time these past few days to look back and take time to make a testimonial for each one of them...sana lang matapos ko silang lahat..

i've been feasting on pastas and chocolates since yesterday. idon't know but i've been enjoying those yummy foods really...could it be...?hehe...wag naman sana..

To my teammates, goodluck naman sa ating lahat...we'll surely miss PSC...Paano na ang nga suki cards?Paano na kapag 5 minutes before shift ka lang dumating?Paano na ang smoking area?Paano na ang RCBC canteen?Paano na ang vendo machine?Paano na ang bisayang voice over sa elevator na nagsasabeng "sicond floor?"darn!it's gonna be a new adventure na naman for us...we'll keep JG's ops floor chaotic..haha!

sambalewanje!

2006-05-17T03:17:00.000-07:00

Been from my rest days...was able to sleep well, thank goodness, i thought di na ako tao eh, natutulog pa din pala ako...

Last Monday, I had some sort of misunderstanding with one of my friends. I am really feeling mad with the way they are treating us after that night in Malate so I decided to confront him. He actually explained his side...In fairness, we managed to settle it and I also apologized for being that straightforward to him.

These past few days, rain kept pouring the whole of Metro Manila. It's not that I hate it when it's raining, it's just that memory keeps on flooding me..call me emotional or whatever, but this kind of weather gives me those emotional boo-boos...it made me think of so many stuff, including what if's..yay!also, this weather makes me ride a cab always...FYI: I am not the sosyal type of person, but I just need to ride a cab these past few days since I am always late waking up or the rain's pouring really hard...gawd!I still have two weeks before payday!!!

Emotional turmoil is hitting me once again...and i am having a hard time deciding over things...just last Monday, I indulged into something I now regret doing...right now, i am in love but i don't know what to do...shall i follow whats right or shall i follow what my heart is dictating?

for-he-who-must-not-be-named:
i hate you for being like that..
for being caring..
for being always there..
for being a shoulder to cry on..
for making me feel special..
i hate everything you are doing to me..
it only makes me fall for you even harder when i know i shouldn't be..
i don't want to lose you but i also don't want to lose a friend..

mommy lei, mother liz, mother gos, arn and me were able to buy some cadbury chocolates for a cheaper amount of moolah...it was indeed yumyum!!hehe

I was able to read these quotes from a site in the internet...i think these quotes speaks well of how i am feeling right now...argh!

"You hug him good-bye like it's nothing... while all you want to do is hold on forever...but you let go, smile and walk away... then cry all the way home because you know it will never be the same... because try as you might you can't make someone love you, sometimes you have to let them be free... and letting go, that is when love hurts the most of all."

"To let go isn't to forgot, not to think about, or ignore. It doesn't leave feelings of anger, jealousy, or regret. Letting go isn't about winning or losing. It's not about pride and it's not about how you appear, and it's not obsessing or dwelling on the past. Letting go isn't blocking memories or thinking sad thoughts, and doesn't leave emptiness, hurt, or sadness. It's not about giving in or giving up. Letting go isn't about loss and it's not about defeat. To let go is to cherish the memories, but to overcome and move on. It is having an open mind confidence in the future. Letting go is learning and experiencing and growing. To let go is to be thankful for the experiences that made you laugh, made you cry, and made you grow. It's about all that you have, all that you had, and all that you will soon gain. Letting go is having the courage to accept change, and the strength to keep moving. Letting go is growing up. It is realizing that the heart can sometimes be the most potent remedy. To let go is to open a door, and to clear a path and set yourself free."

yay!life sucks!

Gawd!

2006-05-14T00:05:00.000-07:00

we had a blast partying all night yesterday.It actually started off with Arete's birthday at Renaissance 2003 along Ortigas. I only had a bottle of Red Horse, i've to tell you that. I was able to meet his cousins as well as some of his friends. Sad thing, we have to leave the place already and just head towards Caras but Igl and I backed off the idea. Instead, we just went to Metrowalk. Ross told us that she'll be following us. We actually didn't stay long there and just decided to fetch my cousins for the continuation of our gimik. So at 2:30 in the morning, Igl and I courageously walked from Metrowalk to POEA where we will be taking our ride. We had so much stories to tell that we just realized how far we walked when we were nearing EDSA already and just how scary walking there is. Good thing,nothing really bad happened to us. There we decided to just take a cab since there were no buses already.

Upon fetching my cousins, we decided to go to Malate, where Drake was. We called him and he gave us the directions. We were able to arrive there, like 3 in the morning. We were able to meet his friends, one of them looks like Carlos Agassi, and the other one, I cannot think of any comparison, they are actually a couple. It was so nice of them though to accomodate us even if we came in the middle of their eating at Lookal.

While eating there, one of my cousins was talking to mark, my bestfriend, who happens to live just within the area. He wanted to meet us and invited us to their house. At first, the meeting was just for Carmen, as we let them have their time together. But when Drake and Igl was about to go to fluid, I thought that it would not be good if i'll be letting my cousins, one aged 17, and the other, 14 enter fluid and see different something something. Good thing we did not join them since Igl told us of gross scenarios she saw while inside fluid. While they were there, we decided to accept my bestfriend's invitation to just stay at their home while waiting for morning to come and we'll be heading to Libis. We had some chitchatting with his brother also and at 5 in the morning, we went to the bar in front of Giligans, (i'm sorry, I forgot the name) and told Drake that we'll be leaving. Igl decided to come over since we were about to talk about some personal stuff. Arriving at Libis, we had our breakfast at Somethin's Fishy, had a bottle of Sanmig light and that's it. Downfall: Ross at this moment is nowhere to be found, and no way to be contacted...my poor bebeh, probably, she had just too much alcohol again...it was already obvious bebeh when you were making, you know, "the moves" to francis...hehe..love you bebeh!

Moving on a more personal side, I don't know if meeting up with that bestfriend of mine brought me happiness or just pain. You see, our situation is not the typical, boy-girl bestfriend relationship,it goes a bit complicated than that. That is what we, Igl and I should have talked about. She said I was just hurting myself for doing that but I cannot actually blame me.I actually told her that it would be the last time i'll be meeting up with markdaniel, she just shrugged her shoulders off telling me that she later on, i cannot say that she did not warn me...she also told me to let go of my bestfriend even if he means so much to me..yay!the situation was indeed awkward, in fact igl could attest to that, she was the witness of, well, how i am during "those" circumstances...i just hope things get better before it'll be too late..i know, i'm gonna be in deep trouble if things go on...igl, we need to talk about it really soon...

Pictures soon to be posted..

Happy Birthday my bebeh..

2006-05-08T06:16:00.000-07:00

9:03 pm - just woke up from a long slumber after, well, indulging myself in too much drinks again last night as we celebrated bebeh Ross' birthday. I was not supposed to go to her celebration since I have my shift when I received a text message from them. They were inviting me and Drake to go to her place and party. We were contacting them to get the details of how to go there but I don't know what happened and we cannot reach any of their mobile phones. And so we disregarded the idea of going there already. I went on with my plan to drop by my cousin's place and spend the night there. When I looked at my phone, it had 3 missed calls and 3 messages, still insisting that i go there. I tried calling Rodney's number and good thing I was able to talk to them. And so at 1 in the morning, with my cousins, I went to Ross' place and brought some foods and drinks. We really had so much fun partying, chit chatting and just talking about anything under the sun, and oh, by the way, Ross' brother, Arete joined us also. We went home at around 8 in the morning since we had some sort of drama with Igl, sad thing Ross was not able to witness it since she had some sort of misunderstanding with her boo. Bebeh, I hope you've settled it already. You deserve to be happy as I am happy with my bebeh already, my sister..hehe..

Yay, as I was about to go home, I cannot understand what is happening with my stomach. I forgot that I was not able to eat anything before I indulged myself in too much drinking. I just don't know how I was able to go home here since I sent my cousins home first before I head home since we did not ask permission to go out, in short, tumakas lang kame..hehe..But it was indeed so much fun still..

DSL sucks...As i was posting this entry, the connection from our server failed. GAWD!I am paying bucks of money for their service and such service is unsatisfactory. I am planning of calling them tomorrow to complain about it..

I'll be going to work tomorrow for a training for MS Excel, 10:30-12:30...Sheesh! It was supposed to be my rest day still..hay...

it's a free world after all..

2006-05-07T04:07:00.000-07:00

Still enjoying this "free surf" world we have right now...hehe...also, i'm enjoying the luxury of time..see, i was able to change the skin of my blog with, err, some help from Drake..thanks so much bhie!admit it, i learned a little in this blog world already, give me a few more blog skin changing and i'll be way better than you are!!hehe...love you much!

i am afraid for next week to come, i am feeling paranoia right now, anxiety's killing me...i've made someone a promise, but dang! i don't know if i can fulfill it...it would really be a life changing event if plans will push through...i still don't know how to get over this...but i've to warn you that this is not the same as what my usual post contained, as what i've told you, i am enjoying my life right now...and yeah, i'm in too much enjoying...gawd!the heck...anyway, just wish me luck..

my work environment right now is so refreshing...just love it..

my busmate/officemate/friend/krung Ross is celebrating her beerthday today, happy beerthday bebeh, and wait, someone told us you're gonna bring us some pastas eh?asan na?hehe..love you bebeh!

yay!sometimes, it's also tiring to just surf all day...

blogger break..

Cuteness..

2006-05-06T04:28:00.000-07:00

i was browsing through some stuff on the computer when i chanced upon these clips...

If you want to check out other clips, you could go to www.bigoo.ws. The site contains stuff for your blogs, myspace among others...

That's all folks!till my next post!

new phase, new me?

2006-05-06T01:28:00.000-07:00

i am having a great time now...don't ask me why, puhleez!!i am now on an afternoon shift, 2-11 pm at that...i'm not yet used to it, but it's fine..i am again together with mommy lei and the rest whom i miss when i was in GY..there are fewer calls, but it's not toxic..i am not planning to stay long in this shift, i just took a refresher from the pressure GY shift gives but when shift bid comes, i'll still opt to stay on GY..

I had a dream yesterday about an officemate/friend/busmate/krung-krung, Ross. I am not mentioning the entire story here but i've already told her that as soon as i got up from my slumber. I didn't know why I dreamt of that, but maybe because subconsciously, that is what I am actually wishing for her...

I'll be missing Igl and the rest of our friends from another account in our team as they will be transferring from PSC to JG.Dang!And yeah, I'll be missing Dumbo too!!yay!

Few days ago, my cellphone was broken. I was charging it in my room when a cousin of mine went inside. I already warned him not to go near it since its position is not that safe, but being that little bitchy/bratty little boy that he is, he still went near it, and alas! my phone fell...i was really infuriated right at that moment.it's not because of the unit itself, but basically because it was actually the first thing i bought without asking anybody some moolah..well, i still have to wait for my next pay so that i'll have it repaired - i hope it can still be. I also hope that Semicon will not charge me big bucks...argh!

I can say that i am happy right now. There is a big chance that resignation will be out of the topic already as they are considering what i want. Plus I am totally over that lovesick - drama phase of my life momentarily. I have left all my excess baggages already and is starting to gather another suitcase again - this time, with more lessons learned and more precautions taken..hehe..

i love my life right now, and i am living it to the limits!I am enjoying myself more right now..Just last week, I had my hair treated and colored it burgundy, nothing really special, probably i just want some change. It looked okay but of course, you would never be spared of all the teasing from my teammates..Honestly, that is one thing i love abut my team, we are always happy - as in..

So there, I think this is a new phase of Kim Scribbables' life already..no hang - ups, only adventures to look forward to..as they say, carpe diem!I should seize the day..ciao!

Missin' Candydudz..

2006-05-01T13:49:00.000-07:00

We went to Candy's despedida yesterday. I was really looking forward to that since that was only our time to go out together, well, as a team since we cannot really find time to be together all at the same time since work schedule prohibits us to do so...

Being together for the first time paved way for us to at least enjoy each other's company. Although for me, Ross, Drake and Igl, it was not our first time together, being with Goldi, Mother Liz, Agnes, Derek, Francis, Anne and Arn made it like a first time...And I am also looking forward to having more bonding sessions with them.

I wasn't able to go to work last Sunday...I won't be blaming anybody for it since I also enjoyed it...I was way too drunk to get up and head to work. Also, if I persuaded in going to work, I might just end up having a warning..Sup Pao, thanks for understanding!! I promise, that was going to be my last..I drank tequilla and Red Horse like water that I forgot about my shift...too bad!!!As I was about to go to work, I cannot even walk that Igl needs to be on my side wherever I will go...igloots, thanks a bunch!!needless to say, my teammates saw me at one of my worse state, yuck!!embarassing!!my suppossedly leaving Candy's place at 7:30 pm ended up us leaving 4 in the morning. We really had so much fun just by chit chatting, eatng, drinking and SINGING - yes!!!My teammates really sang their hearts out and belt out different songs...When Francis, Derek and Drake sang, it was superb, it's like they are not the ones singing...hehe...they sang like divas - no exagg, better ask those at the party. Arn also sang a song, hmm, Arn, siner wannabe eh?hehe, but you're not too bad, I should say..Ross also proved her capacity as a singer and Igl made "kalat"? haha...no, she was just enjoying soo much that's why...Goldi, on the other hand need not prove anything as she is, well, the singing diva in the group..hehe..I was also able to talk to some of Candy's cousins and really had great time. If only Francis was still there the time I was talking to them, I'm sure I will be getting so much teasing from him...By the time we were about to board the bus, I gave Candy one last hug and can't help but feel sad about her leaving. I know if she only have a choice, she would rather stay...but, yay!!life!!Surely, I'll be missing so much of Candydudz - we haven't been together for a long time yet, but I was able to get to know her and really went along well in a short span of time - from our chocolate eating bonding sessions to our three way swap schedules which sends headaches to workforce and our supervisors, from being shiftmates to our supposedly trip to Baguio and swimming, from all the teasing and her "bye guyz/ohmigod" phrases...yay!!!but I know, this opportunity will pave way for a better whatever, we just have to look at it positively...

Igl, Ross and I had breakfast at Somethin' Fishy in Libis. It was unplanned and just as we were about to go home from Candy's place, we decided to go there. Nothing special really. We were enjoying our breakfast there teasing Ross of how she escaped Yuriy's interrogation, a group of friends arrived, as if they were off to some partying, so naturally, there were the "looks" among the three of us. As they were done with their eating and was about to gou our, they stopped at our table and made the looks on us also, so what we did was to exchange looks with them...they even stayed near our table for about 20 minutes, probably, waiting for us to go out. But we have no plans of making a big fuss out of it...Ross concluded that it might have been of my "deadly" stares that they thought that we were talking about them all the time. Good thing, we did not end up fighting.

Starting this week, I might be covering Candy's shift until the next shift bid comes, that means that I will be in the afternoon shift, 2 - 11 pm...I think it's better than being on graveyard shifts with so many on leaves and accidental sickness..

Escapades..

2006-04-22T09:53:00.000-07:00

fresh from my one week leave from work, i am back again and i can say i am more relaxed and less pressured this time...i have had so much fun during my vacay...went to baguio first..weather's freezin' cold, unlike here but people walking around are as many as here in Manila...we drove around almost everywhere there..'twas so much fun since i was with my family, we had the chance to bond as well as talk about some stuff that concerns our lives...all i can say is that i am not yet done with bargaining but my tito's thinking of considering what i want.

from baguio, we rode a 12 - hour travel going to tugegarao...and i can say, it was really a pain in the ass!!there we transferred from one house to another since a lot of relatives were offerring their place for us to stay at.the only difficulty i had while i was there is that i dont know how to speak a conversible Ibanag (that, my dear is the language spoken there.)The weather is waaaaay hotter than Baguio..(a college barkada texted me in such way that i dont know whether it was for information or an insult..hehe...it read:"KIM, FYI: Tugegarao is the hottest city in the Philippines! :-)), but we managed to get through it. After a day of staying there, we went to Piat Church then head towards Tuao, Cagayan. We really had so much fun there. I had the chance to ride a calesa for the first time in my life...And again, their language, Itaoit is what they call it, hindered me to converse well with them...but they also tried their best to speak to us although they were having difficulty in speaking Filipino. We toured around the province riding a calesa and it was such a wonderful experience..We also went to a resort, down under in Abbut. Abbut is actually a dead end place of Tuao and upon going beyond it, you are actually making your way to Kalinga Apayao...

Being on vacation with my family and at the same time enjoying my stay away from the city made me realized so many things:

1. I should not dwell on the past already and just leave it behind.
2. Life is so beautiful.
3. You can never have superb happiness all at the same time.
4. Letting go brings so much pain but after you've shed so many tears, you would just get sick and tired of still thinking about it.
5.No matter what happens, your family will still be with you. (though they would not really show they care.)
6.Baguio is such a pretty place to fall in love. *wink*

I wish I could stay longer but time didn't allow me to...In that vacation, I was able to make new friends that I intend to keep for lifetime...And I can somehow say, I am letting you go already..thank you for everything...i am ready to live my life again normally but not yet ready to fall again...but at least, I was able to get there...pictures are soon to be posted..im looking forward to our Club Manila East getaway on the 30th and our Bora trip on the 23rd..Yay!Summer!

Getting there..

2006-04-13T07:02:00.000-07:00

I came to work only few minutes before my actual shift since i had a hard time looking for a vehicle that would bring me to work...yay!!Holy Week blues!!!Few vehicles on the road, a lot of commuters on the street, a lot of people barefoot making taht traditional "Alay-Lakad", (Aside: Honestly, I don't believe that doing such is a person's way to sacrifice...okay, for some, maybe yes, but if you would really see other people, I think that their intention was just to make "gala", seeing all their radios and paraphernalias.End Aside)

The past week had been a sort of a "reflecting week" for me...I hadn't been my ususal self as I avoided talking to people whom I usually mingle with...It's not that I don't want to talk to them but, let's just say that my mind was so pre-occupied with a lot of things that time...for one, I was having second thoughts of going back to school for the reason that i have to choose between pursuing it or leaving people i grew accustomed with for the past one year...until now, i still don't know what would happen, i haven't talked about it yet with the people concerned but i hope everything will turn out well..then, a problem that i never imagined myself considering a problem...yes, that darn, stupid thing called lovelife!!!i cannot say i am totally over it now, it just pains me thinking of it always and always...i need to get a life!!!

With these things happening and all, I came to know who my friends are...i would just like to thank all of them...I really was so touched that they made an effort to know what was bugging me, I didn't expect them doing it though...It really was something that lightened the burdens I have..I really am able to see that they were bothered with the twist in my behavior...thank you thank you guys....AX team-thanks so much, francis - thank you so much for ym-ing me..., meg - thanks a lot for bugging me and making kulit to me...this time, di na mashado ang negative vibes sa team...

i can't say that i'm already okay...but i'm trying to be...i am somehow back to being the ever hyper - kim that the team knows and loves according to mommy lei...but sometimes, those burderns still passes by my thoughts and still couldn't help but feel sad about it...but hey, i can be strong if i want to...i'm not yet so much okay, but i'm getting there..

mommy lei, HIM being back on GY shift has nothing to do with my being light hearted a bit...it was purely co - incidental, I think...

still

2006-04-11T14:39:00.000-07:00

Still in deep thinking...but as they say, life goes on, I have to go with it...but life seems to be so unfair at times...oh well, whatever happens, I have to be a fighter, because as one person dear to me told me, I have to be strong - for both of us...

choosing between law school and work still sucks!I dont want to give up my job and resign...i still have a month shy away to bargain with my tito...if things goes well, i'll still be staying at my work...if not, can't say anything...my rl is reasy to be printed out...nonehteless,i'll miss them so much...

In deep thinking...

2006-04-08T07:12:00.000-07:00

These past few days, I am in deep thinking of things - those that really bother me...I really don't want to sound so melodramatic but as of now, I am not feeling happy with the way things are.I know I should be but I simply can't since there are so many thing that hinders me. I know life has already given me so much - pains, joys, satisfaction and all, but the fact still remains that there is something missing to complete me. I do not know what it is but I want to seek for it, it may be hard but i guess, that is the only thing that would make me stop searching.

You see, I am now on the verge of giving up, I don't know what to do next. Sometimes, people at home would catch me staring at nothing...honestly, i don't know what is happening to me, probably it is just an effect of tons and tons of things to think of...

I apologize to all those people who notices the change in my behavior...sorry if my post is like this but for now i guess, gone is the cheerful kim and shall be back til God knows when...good luck to me!

dang!

2006-04-07T08:58:00.000-07:00

We celebrated my grandmother's 40th day as well as birthday today at home. We had a gathering with close family members. It was just too awkward seeing people you were not so used not seeing before, then, pop!!!well, i guess i just have to be used to seeing them more often. Even though we sort of partied, I still went to work half day...and i guess, because of super lack of sleep, I really wasn't into talking and chatting and all...At dahil sa sobrang kaantukan ko, pati ang nananahimik na aso, eh nadamay, kung bakit, eto...

goldenbelle (4/7/2006 3:57:34 AM): musta party nyo
angel in disguise (4/7/2006 3:58:22 AM): ayos lang...
goldenbelle (4/7/2006 3:58:56 AM): sinabi naman sayo nina ross yung about dun sa leave mo no?
goldenbelle (4/7/2006 3:59:05 AM): nakalimutan na kita itxt eh
angel in disguise (4/7/2006 4:08:41 AM): hindi...tumawag na ;ang aso...
goldenbelle (4/7/2006 4:08:57 AM): ha?

Hehehe...

Crossroads...yay!

2006-04-01T14:52:00.000-08:00

I am again in one of the crossroads of my life's journey.I am torn between deciding over law school and work...I know deep in my heart i should take law but i think my mind is not yet set on that. I am enjoying my current job and the people i mingle with, but the pressure coming from the people around me seems unbearable now. I know it will all depend on my decision already but i cannot just venture into something i did not think of deeply. you see, my job now is not as hectic as what usual work is, but whenever people around me say,"sayang, kung tinuloy - tuloy mo na ang pag-lo-law mo after ng grad mo, dapat second year ka na sa june..."or, "sayang ang pagkuha mo ng political science if you would not pursue it to law..."but i guess, i made the right decision though, you see, i took only two entrance exams last year pero i didn't take those seriously, and i realized that if i went to it, i would've spent big amount of money, then eventually drop the subject 'cause of loss of interest or conflict of sched...

this time, i know i have to decide, another school year is about to start by june and people around me are already bugging me for the umpteenth time, and this time, they would want me to take a double degree...WTF!A double degree, can I do that?or shall I say do I want to do that?hay!sometimes, life really sucks...i still have barely a month to decide over it, shall i say, Law school, Law school, here i come...or, still the thanks you for calling...or probably i can do both...what do you think?!?!yay!

A Trip to Jerusalem..

2006-03-26T07:31:00.000-08:00

The past week had been a stressful one for all of us. I don't know if our transferring from the other wing made it more stressful for us. Yay!

One of my teammates and close friend/romantic partner had a sort ofargument with another teammate. And since she cannot post what she wants to say on her blog, with her permission, I am posting her side of the story here.

I was in the office with this co-worker who, I guess, because of such a stressful week had somehow lost her sanity (I hope it's not a premanent damage).
After I've gone back from my 15 min. break, I noticed that somebody had changed the chair that I have been sitting on for some hours. So I went to ask who did it, it wasn't JR, nor Jerome, who had always been switching our chairs. After a while this freakin loser called on to me and with an attitude she said it was her who did it. I asked her why, (JR, giving me this hand gesture to calm down) she yelled, "THIS IS MY CHAIR! I WAS THE ONE WHO PULLED THIS FROM THAT CORNER, SOMEBODY JUST SWITCHED IT DURING MY BREAK." Hearing that, I flipped out.. man, I was sooo freakin pissed coz this loser was trying to bitch me up. Why the fuck would I switch my chair with the one that was already occupied? This bitch was like saying that I aint got some manners. Man, she doesn't have the slightest idea how it's like getting to my bitch side. I tell you this, I can be your nicest friend, but if you mess with me I can be as bitchy as I could get. We had a huge argument that night over such a small thing. And although our supervisor had talked to us, this pathetic bitch hasn't seen the rest of me yet. You know what they say, NEVER START SOMETHING YOU CAN'T FINISH!
Hey you BIATCH, better get your facts straight first... Let me guess, you had the worst experience playing TRIP TO JERUSALEM when you were a kid. I can tell by how you wailed over the loss of "YOUR CHAIR". Dang bitch, you better GROW UP so you can catch up with your AGING boyfriend. HOnestly, I thought he was your grandfather when I saw your family picture, then I figured it was your boyfriend coz he wasn't Asian (my bad).
NEWSFLASH... DRAKE HAS GOT SOME NEWS FOR YOU ABOUT "YOUR CHAIR". You might want to talk to him when you get back from your days off so you will be enlightened.
And like I always say... I don't care what you say or think about me. This is me... to some, this is how they spell my name ---> B-I-T-C-H. I'd rather be called BITCH than someone's LITTLE ASIAN WHORE!

life is a bliss, taste it. life is a struggle, overcome it. life is a challenge, meet it.
life is a game, play it. life is life, live it, love it, fight for it.
-ROSS
"...love like you've never been hurt"

I am in no position to judge what happened. but I guess, one need not to let her depression get into her relationship with her teammates. I understand Ross' point when she said that she thinks that what she is trying to insinuate is that Ross' doesn't have manners...my!!!but wait, I think I've got one point in mind, doesn't it have something to do with her seeing us - Ross, Igle and me, talking with each other and Igle sitting right in her chair?Oh well, life...

This blog is also open to air the other side. hehe..

I think the coming week will be more stressful than the other week had been. From 5th floor, we will be transferring to the 3rd floor...yay!movement...

Two more weeks to go before my Baguio getaway!

Status: Undefined...Confused...Heartbroken...for the nth time...

2006-03-23T09:09:00.000-08:00

Sometimes the most important thing that we get from a relationship is not the guarantee of permanence but the lesson that we learn when it fails.

03182006

2006-03-18T07:14:00.000-08:00

It has almost been a week after my grandmom's burial but i still can't revert to my usual routines. i guess it has not yet sunk in to my system...but yay!!!i know i have to move on, move on and move on...

yes, at long last, i was able to sort out the things of my grandmom...it was hurting on my part seeing all her things but nobody can do it aside from me...i set aside all her things with heavy heart and only that time did i realize that i miss her so much..i guess, that's one of life's ironies, you will be able to realize one's worth when they're gone - when it's too late...

we had been into going out with my family lately...i guess, we just have to catch up on the things we missed when my tito was in Canada...we go to places that we feel like going at the spur of the moment...on the sides of course, is shopping for pasalubongs for my cousins...he still have a few more days left here before he goes back to Canada, so we have to make the most out of it.

tomorrow, march 19, my tito's going to celebrate his birthday...and honestly, i still don't know what to give him...i know no material value can replace what he did for me - he was the one who acted as my parent when my own parents died and when my grandmom got sick.i know he also made so many sacrifices just for me...there came i time that i was really on the verge of giving up but he never left my side...and for that, i'm so thankful to him...he was the one who gave me hope when i thought nothing else in my life will be right. he sticked with me even if almost the rest of the world kept criticizing me - saying all nasty things about me...that is when i realized also that whatever happens, i know the person to whom i will run to...tito jo, thank you ssoooo much for everything, for being a dad, an uncle and a friend..thanks also for always understanding me, i know you've done so much for me....and i may not always tell it to you, but god knows how i love you and how grateful i am to him for giving you to me...happy birthday tito joey and cheers to a lot more years to come...umm, ill try to keep my promise not to get married yet...hehe..kisses!!

also tomorrow, it'll be ej's recognition...i'm so excited about it...you see, i'm so fond of kids and hearing them sing songs that really touches one's hearts makes me knock down on my knees....aaaaaawwwwww!!!!!!hehe...if i can, ill post some pics...til my next post!

The past..

2006-03-05T06:45:00.000-08:00

A lot has transpired within the span of time that i was not able to blog. Blame it on my busy schedule at work (hehe) and other stuff i attended to the last few days.

I was also able to attend the birthday celebration of a friend, Mark last February i don't remember the date. We had an overnight with some friends and we really had a great time. Was also able to talk to Josh that time. Also it was during this month that I was able to do the most stupid thing I could ever imagine myself doing. I don't want to elaborate much on things but the bottomline is that it was just because of a guy i thought was worth of my tears but turned out, well not worthy. This was also the month my supervisor, Ia left for a training in Seattle. It was so sad her leaving us but I guess, she, grabbing the opportunity is a good decision.

My grandmother was hospitalized and unfortunately, she didn't make it. She was hospitalized for like, four days, three days in still a conscious state, but on the fourth day, she fell into a deep coma. It was indeed tragic seeing her die in front of me. A lot of people told me that my lola was just waiting for me to let go of her, which definitely was hard onmy part. You see, I was with my lola since I was a child, since my dad died when i was just a kid and my mom had to work. Then when my mom died, she was the one who became my parent. Admittingly though, I had a few instances of stubborness, but the fact remains that i love her so much. So I talked to her, even if it was very hard to let go of her, I told her thjat I'm already okay and she can now rest. I know she was already tired with her 5 years battle with diabetis and all its complications. I cried really hard when the respirator monitor showed 0 heartbeat. I thought it was all just a dream and the moment I wake up from my sleep, I will be able to see my lola again, but it was not. Until now that she was already laid to rest, I can still hear her voice and still miss her so much - so so much...she had been everything to me, my grandmother, my mother, my friend...I know she is in a better place right now and I am happy for her. As for me, I just need some more time to be able to accept these things because as of this moment, I haven't accepted it yet.
Because of this incident, there was some good things that were able to happen. For one, the entire family was able to be gathered all again for the first time after so many years...it's nice to see faces whom we haven't seen for the longest possible time. My tito also came from Canada and will be staying here until the 3rd of April...

With this, I would just like to thank all people who mourned over the loss of my lola...thank you so much...words aren't enough to express my family's sincerest appreciation to you guys. Just by being ther, you have proven to us that whatever the weather will be, true friends really last...You know guys how much I love you so so much and it will be forever that way...in the meantime, i'm taking things slowly...

downtime galore

2006-01-29T09:42:00.000-08:00

its sunday again and we are back to our usual petiks time, so i grabbed this chance and took some time changing the skin of my blog...i don't know what crossed my mind and changed it into something angelic, (i even had my blog title changed into i-am-an-angel,believeit or not!, hehe)well, nothing really new, it was just the same usual week i have...

this morning, I had a good laugh with my teammates - Arn, Ross, Agnes, Jayar, Mommy Cynthia and Ronch...shempre, si Arn kase, niloloko na naman ako...pero ayos lang yun, kase may tikoy naman shang dala para sa amin eh..hehe...nope, ayos lang yun, kase lahat naman kame nagkakaron ng turn na asarin yung bawat isa sa amin eh...buti na nga lang, walang pikon sa amin, kase kung meron, naku, wag na shang makisali sa amin noh!

if plans will push through, i'll be out with Ross and Igle by Tuesday, manunuod daw kame ng Parokya sa Metrobar then head somewhere else after...wala lang, it will be my first time going out with them and I'm hoping naman na magenjoy kame...susme, eh pag asa floor pa nga lan, mga krung krung na kame, how much more pag nasa labas na...hehe!

i miss having shifts with candy, mommy lei, and drake although nagkikita pa naman kame...kaya lang hindi na katulad before na mahaba yung time namen na magkakasama...hay...i guess, i just have nothing important to say that's why i just ranted on what happened and will happen with me...i'm trying not to post anything that has something to do with he-who-must-not-be-named, so there...sori, tao lang!!

Moving on..

2006-01-23T07:05:00.000-08:00

I got this from a friend and I just want to share the result of it..

Your travel type: Party Animal

The Party Animal always wears sunglasses during his vacation. He likes a good hotel, with a swimming pool and room service. A couple of drinks at night, maybe see a show, maybe roll the dice, that's the way to spend the evening.

Culture? A museum? The others can go while the Party Animal stays in bed. You'll find him by the side of the pool when you get back with a martini to get rid of the hangover.

top destinations:

Las Vegas
Tahiti
Hong Kong

stay away from:

North Korea
Ciudad Perdida
Darien Gap

get your own travel profile

OOpps..heartbreak update!i can now say that i have moved on...no bitterness anymore...only good memories to cherish forever...for you who ought not to be named, thanks for everything...you will always be somebody special to me, no matter what happened...

One week and counting...

2006-01-08T06:43:00.000-08:00

The past week for me has brought about so pressures...to be exact, it has been already one week that I am trying to be happy but I just simply can't...i can not say that i am totally over and okay about it already because i am not yet giving up as what i said in my previous post...but somehow, i learned so many things out of what happened...its now more than ever that i was able to feel loved by so many people.People whom i thought would just be there in good times but turned out, they are still with me right now when it seems that nobody else is with me...its just so overwhelming to know that they'd help me out through this, specially they are the only people to whom i can tell everything about HIM...

There's nothing much to say as of the moment...All i'm busy at these past few days is work, nothing more, nothing less..And by the way, I am also reading right now a book from Summit Media entitled "The Breakup Diaries". Wala lang, share ko lang...I've been done reading "Tough Love" and "Wander Girl"...Oopps, before I forget, I am so LSS-ed with this song nowadays...was it just a coincidence or what..du-u-h?!?!

IF THE LOVE FITS, WEAR IT

Leslie Pearl

You say you're not sure about love

If this thing we got together is real

But I say what are you afraid of?

You're a woman now and you know how to feel

Look to your heart

And the answer will be

Such a very simple thing

**But if the love fits wear it, baby

And if it feels good, put it on

And if it's not that then just maybe

You'd be better off to leave it alone
But if the love fits wear it baby

And if it feels good, put it on

And if it looks like then just maybe

This love we have is where you belong

(This love we have is where you belong)

Baby you've got nothin' to lose

You can try it on and see if it suits you

And maybe, if it's not right for you

You can turn and walk away if you choose to

I want you to stay

'Cause you feel good to me

But I'll leave it up to you

(**)

I'd like to hold you for I love you a lot

And try to make you understand

We got a good thing and it fits us so tight

But what can I do? It's up to you

(**)

Phew...as the song goes, and if it is not that, then just maybe, we'd be better off to leave it alone...

well, let's see...Good Luck to me...

For he-who-must-not-be-named...

2006-01-07T07:46:00.000-08:00

why is it that when i fell in love with you, I never thought of anything else...

why is it that when I've almost given what I thought would make you happy, .you would tell me that you're letting me go...

why is it that when I am deeply into you will you tell me that you can't take it anymore...

why is it that when I f*ck*in tried to make things work and thought I was doing a good job out of it will you realize that it just can't be...

why is it that your damn ego cannot accept thing as they are right now???

i am not bragging and would never brag about it, so why make a big deal out of it?!?!

why the hell are there people whose happiness is to always piss you off...

i'm confused, enlighten me...

i am not yet giving up...

nor am i letting you let go of me...

its just that its not that easy to put all those memories to waste...

i am still in pain and i dont know for how long...

***thanks to all those peeps whose helping me this time...you know who you guys are...love you much!!!

i promise, you'll be the first to know once i get better...***

Happy New Year!!!!

2005-12-31T16:59:00.000-08:00

2005 was one heck of a year i can forget...this is the year that i really had the best times...of course with the best people also...for one, i was able to finish my schooling and get my degree...this was also the year that i landed on my first job ever.Because of this, I was able to be with a lot of cool people..now that this year is about to end, i have to leave all my excess baggages behind and look forward to a lot of wonderful things.And since everybody is doing it, might as well do this year end survey thing..

What did you do in 2005 that you'd never done before?

*get addicted to the "blog thing",give my share with the expenses at home and try out something really extraordinary.

Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?

*I said I'd learn how to handle my own bank accounts which I am slowly learning. I also said that i'll make the most of my life this year which I also did.

Did anyone close to you give birth?*none.

Did anyone close to you die?

*none either

What would you like to have in 2006 that you lacked in 2005?

*Independence.

What date from 2005 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?

*I think it was April 2005.It was a wonderful feeling being able to get your bachelor's degree. Another was a breakthrough moment with my close friends especially with the trip we had to Pampanga, we were not group but we managed to make it an enjoyable one.Then there were nights on any friends' place and with great company.

What was the best thing you bought?

*My phone because i bought it with my own money..

Where did most of your money go?

*I don't want to know. Probably food and gifts and stuff.

What did you get really, really, really excited about?

*I don't really know. This year was full of unexpected things that got me excited.Maybe the thought of being able to buy things for myself and loved ones without the need for bargaining.**wink**

What song(s) will always remind you of 2005?

*"I just dont Love you no More" by Craig David and "Push the Button" by Sugababes

Compared to this time last year, are you:

i. happier or sadder? -- I can't say, I just know I'm different. I'm bigger. I got the chance to experience both sides.

ii. thinner or fatter? -- fatter :-(

iii. richer or poorer? -- Richer.I got work to support my caprices..hehe

What do you wish you'd done more?

*Save more. Fight. Be passive. Not listen to myself.Be independent

How many one-night stands?

*Wala.hmm.

Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?

*yep.and its one tough secret i ought not tell.

What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?

*I turned 21, and fed 50+ people at home. There was incredible food and beers as well as videoke to go around for days. Everyone had a great time, specially me because somebody special was there that night..

What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?

*Had the guts to do what i really wanted and not be afraid of its consequence.
What kept you sane?

*My friends, and my work, family, special someone

Who did you miss?

*My college friends coz we dont have the luxury of time to see each other unlike before...and-he-who-knows-who-he-is..

Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2005:

1) The world is smaller than I ever thought it was, and bigger than I ever thought it was.

2) I am loved by soooo many people.

What was the nicest thing someone told you about yourself:

*Somebody told me that i have the power to move people. He also said that i am one person really worth keeping for the rest of his life...aaaaawwww!!!!

The most touching experience you've had this year?

*When somebody special gave me something that can never be replaced by anything. His mere presence was enough for me to stay happy...

What did you like most about yourself this year?

*My guts. I faced down alot of fears this year.Also my being able to survive with my what i have as a salary...

What did you hate most about yourself this year?

*My immaturityand my being easily trustful to people.

What was your favorite moment of the year?

*My getaway with my friends...

What was your least favorite moment of the year?

*Fights.

Where were you when 2005 began?

*at home

Who were you with?

*Family..

Where will you be when 2005 ends?

*At work...grr!!

Who will you be with when 2005 ends?

*My officemates!!

Do you have a new years resolution for 2006?

*To do things that I am afraid to do.To know what I want to do with my life.

What was your favorite month of 2005?

*September - December 2005

Did you lose anybody close to you in 2005?

*Yup.

Did you miss anybody in the past year?

*Yes, so much.

Did you drink a lot of alchohol in 2005?

*Yup.

do a lot of drugs in 2005?

*eeeccckkk!!!!!!!!No...

Did you do anything you are ashamed of this year?

*Oo, naman.

How much money did you spend in 2005?

*I better not compute it....

If you could go back in time to any moment of 2005 and change something, what would it be?

*it would be making the most of my college life and pushed a little effort to have achieved that something i was really hoping knowing the fact that i need only almost a single strand of being able to achieve it.

How are you different now that the year has ended?*

I'm not afraid somehow.I was able to learn the importance of money since i am the one earning and working hard to get what i want.

What are your wishes for the new year?

*better life, good luck and a nice and lasting lovelife...i'm sick and tired of short lived romance...I hope to make more people happy.

I know God has a lot of plans for us for the coming year. Nobody would ever know that, but whatever happens,keep on rockin!!!life is very beautiful...there's so much to look forward to...

At this point, i want to thank all those people who helped me go through the tough ride of my life - people who never left me whatever the weather was...they were just there when i want somebody to talk to, they always listen, when i whine - they just keep quiet, and when i am mad, they just let me be...They are the ones who embraced me despite all my imperfections and weaknesses...they are the ones who helped me when i was in the most life wrecking and devastating event of my life, they cheered me all those times - my barkada - mark, rad, dave, czar, rhiane, kel, mel, bibing, bury and paula...thank you so so much...i wouldn't know what to do without you guys...to josh,for being my inspiration the past few months...yes, being so much in love with you made me realize so many things...and this is the only entry i was able to admit it...thank you so so much for all your goodness to me...it is really appreciated...it has been a wonderful year for me knowing you guys are just around despite the busy things we are all doing..and rest assured as 2005 ends and 2006 approaches, our bond will gho beyond what we all expected...love you guys...

On a lighter note...I had a sumptuous Noche Buena here at the office...Drake brought spaghetti while Meg treated us pizza...Yum yum...but good thing...hindi ako na-empacho this time...sorry arn...walang chocolates ngayon eh...hehe
Happy New Year everyone!!!

whoa!

2005-12-17T11:52:00.000-08:00

It has been so long that I have not written anything here in my blog...and i miss blogging so much...curse this f*ckin s*rf control thing here in the office...it hinders me from posting what i wanted to post in my blog...was able to hang out at providence with mark, kel, dave and me, had some sort of drama mode and all, butu we ended up just fine...a lot has happened to me during those times...so many that i can't even remember the exact details of it..what i just remember is that i was able to hang out with friends - mark, peewee, rhiane and dave and then head to rad's place for nothing...hehe...joma celebrated his birthday but i wasn't able to come because of one life - wrecking incident i encountered and i ought not to explain it...we gave him something that he really liked and i do hope that he really appreciated it...
i have been so busy with work lately...there had been so much calls and there is sometimes no time for down time...
czar also celebrated his birthday...gave him something...sad to say, he's not in the mood that day...sayang!we could have treated you that night...hehe
christmas is fast approaching...i could really feel it...but im not excited about it at all...i think it shall pass by like any ordinary day for me...phew...if only...

?@&*!

2005-11-19T05:29:00.000-08:00

*i was able to go out again last thursday after,well, a month of not being able to do so...

*went to sm manila to dine out with some special people...hehe...bought gifts for our friends who celebrated and will celebrate their birthday...

*wasn't able to follow drake, ross and pao at Government...sorry guys...my batt got low...wasn't able to contact you guys...sorry again...(sheepish smile!)...sure you had fun...too bad for me...

*was able to talk to josh for quite some time...hehe...i'm just a bit nervous 'coz it would reflect on my bills...i hope nobody gets to open my bills at home...if not...i just don't know what's gonna happen...

*will either go to bulacan or spend an overnight with friends next week...i'll probably file for a one day leave...

*will not be able to sleep tomorrow, got an affair to attend to the whole day then head to work right after...good luck to me...

*not really on the mood to write the rundown of events...i guess, i have to make it up on my next post...and before i forget, just want to greet dave a happy birthday on the 21st...love you pasaway!!!

damn boring...and some thoughts under lucid interval...

2005-11-06T07:29:00.000-08:00

yep, it's a sunday today - a boring sunday...i've got fewer calls but we are only two agents on the floor...i don't know what it is that sundays have that i hate when this day of the week arrives. In fact, i don't like my rest days to fall on this day.hohumm...it just feels so boring..

my current favorite song is craig david's "I just Don't Love you no more"...i love hearing it over and over...in fact, my radioblog's flooded with this song and i never get sick of hearing it...basta, love it!!

i've read arnold's blog, and i was moved by his entry "up and over". I mean, I also experience sudden loneliness at times for no reason...i mean, i would suddenly feel lonely without knowing the reason why i am in such state.weird i guess, however, i think people would always at one point feel this way...after reading arn's entry, i looked back at what had happened in my life...i realized i did so many sacrifices, be it big or small...my life had been a struggle for me, not knowing where and whom to cling on to at times i feel like i am deep down under.. yes i can say, i have my friends but it's a different thing knowing that you have a family that will be by your side whatever the weather will be...my life has been a topsey turvey roller coaster ride for me i guess, experiencing so much pain at such an early age...my mom when she was still alive would always tell me to be strong whatever will happen to me, i just have to believe that i am...and i guess that is what i did the entire sojourn i have been up to...i may have tripped off alot of times, committing a lot of mistakes, but what's important is that i've learned from it and if ever i'll be doing that same mistake again, at least i know how to handle it, as they say, i now have my safety gears...sudden rush of memories keep flooding me now...sad and happy ones...but i am proud to say that i am a tougher and stronger person now...i may have experienced so many difficulties in life but i considered those as pieces of puzzle that would complete my happiness, it may be absurd to say that i find happiness in encountering hardships, but everytime i succeed in overcoming those, i feel happy and fulfilled...just as what my mom told me, i should be strong, and yes i am...i know i will still be experiencing a lot, but i guess, i am armed with enough guts and strength to face whatever it may be, my experience had indeed taught me to treasure whatever life has to offer me 'cause somehow it adds spice to one's life...

Having experienced those, i guess, i can say that it somehow made me grow up a bit faster...i have to put all my barbie dolls aside and face real dolls - people of all sort...i have met so many people who eventually became my friends and enemies as well...they may have hurt me and i may have hurt some of them too, but i believe they have somehow contributed to what i am now...there were people whom i thought would always be there but vanished when i needed them the most and there were also those people whom i never imagined to help me iron out my mess but stood by me on trying times...backstabbers, pretentious, users- i met almost all of them...despite all those,what makes me break down in happiness with tears is that I have got all their memories , through those times that I've lost them, the memories still linger in my heart..the joys and cheers, the hurt and the fears...I've carved every good thing we all once had on rockhard stone, and all the bad ones on the sand by the seashore where the waters can ravel on them to take 'em all away....i just realized life is too short to live with anger and deceit and to be mean to others...

as of the moment, i can honestly say that i am not so happy with my life, there are certain things i find hard to understand, however- i just keep going so that if ever i'd be looking back again, i won't be having regrets...All i can say is that i was and am strong--yes i am...

this is me - that is when i am under lucid interval...memories just keep on pouring out...savor it...it rarely happens..

some sort of a crap!

2005-11-02T06:32:00.000-08:00

can't think of anything interesting to post in my blog right now, but i want to update it...i've already scanned blogskins.com since i also want to edit its skin, but unfortunately, wasn't able to find any...so sad...

i went to visit my mom in the cemetery despite the argh! so heavy rain...'twas okay nonetheless...wasn't able to visit my pop since i have no freakin' idea where he was laid. okay, i know where he was laid, in batangas, but for crap's sake, i hardly have an idea on where in batangas it was...phew!!!but if it's for any consolation, i prayed for him...

last monday, i wasn't able to sleep for the entire day, ended up sleeping during my shift...here's why...i went home from work at around 9 in the morning, ate breakfast, then after some time, i decided to doze off to sleep...there should've been no problem until just after a few minutes, one of our helpers woke me up to tell that another helper, who happened to have borrowed some amount of money from me left our house...what's irritating is that she woke me up when that f*ckin helper of ours is already gone!!!my point is, if she wants to leave, that's fine...but MY GAWD!!, the amount of money she borrowed from me is no joke!!!okay, it's not a very big an amount but with the prices of commodities nowadays and my luxuries, even a single peso counts...she is indeed a crap!!!well, wait til her karma arrives..i know it will soon come...and if that happens, that's the time i can say we are even...can't help it, i am so pissed off...after that, i wasn't able to go back to sleep already...i decided to follow my cousins in the cemetery...i was able to arrive there at 3:30 pm...had some chit chat with cousins i haven't seen for quite some time already...every holiday has been our sort of bonding since most of them have no works on holidays...so sad i have...

we decided to leave the cemetery at around 7 pm since we will still be going somewhere else...but unfortunately, after eating our dinner, they decided to drop me at the office, then afterwards, they'll be going to libis...too bad for me, i have to be stucked in the office while all of my cousins are having fun!!!!argh!

while i was in the office, i felt that i really needed to at least have a few minutes of sleep since i am really not feeling so comfortable not being able to sleep for one whole day and something irritating transpired. i was able to doze off to sleep at work, and just when i was having a great time being able to steal a few minutes of it, somebody woke me up!!!!gosh, it was my supervisor,oopps, my former supervisor, i should say, who happens to be my "you know"...hehe...apparently, he was waking me up for quite some time already before i was able to wake up...guess, 'twas one of the nicest slumbers i had...*wink*wink*

i am feeling overly happy these past few days...i am inspired to do things, my life's running smoothly, nobody is ruining my mood, and yes i am in love, very much!...hehe...i know, it wouldn't be forever that i'll have this rainbow colored life, but i just hope that if it would not be forever that way, i am hoping that i can handle it...in the meantime, let me just savor the happiness...

this coming friday, i'll be heading to bulacan with some people out there...and i am sure it will be so much fun again...just can't wait, i'm excited...hehe...

just want to greet one of my teammates, candy a very happy birthday!!!candz, goodluck sa PS Idol! Teehee!!

i am now on graveyard shift, 10 pm - 7 am...not normal but i'm okay with it...i am now adjusted with my schedule and with the volume of calls i am receiving...i am now under another sup, sup carrie this time...hehe...so happy with my account, it's just like we are not working 'cause we are really having so much fun inspite of a lot of irate callers...and by the way, i just had a call last night for 30 minutes!!!!well, he kept on ranting about his billing address which he changed some 4 years ago...damn him!!!sup call na nga yun, tas he didn't give my sup the chance to talk...ang nasabe lang namen pareho, alright, alright, i understand...pisti ah!!!god bless him na lang...

i always have fun whenever i'm on my way home together with my offcie/bus mate ross...we always end up laughing over something or somebody...it's not our intention to make fun over somebody, but whenever we are on our way home, there is something happening...and just this morning, we remembered krung krung and all her kagagahan which made us really laugh...my gawd, how we miss that krung krung!!!hehe...

i had a dream kanina,'twas nice...hehe...kainis nga lang, my cousin woke me up in the middle of my very beautifule dream...i have to wake up na daw to get ready for work...grr!!!if he only knew!!!i could've screwed his neck...hehe...

guess this is it for this post...i'll try to update this as often as i can and as long as there are no qeueing of calls...hehe...holiday's fast approaching so americans keep calling to order their stuff online...argh!!

?

2005-10-28T14:28:00.000-07:00

"Don't be dismayed at good-byes. A farewell is necessary before you can meet again. And meeting again, after moments or lifetimes,is certain for those who are friends..."

tRiPpInG..

2005-10-27T07:50:00.000-07:00

we went to pampanga yesterday to celebrate josh's birthday...well, we actually had a blast although we were only six who came...but nonetheless, it was superbfun!!we boarded the bus at around 7:30 pm and arrived at pampanga a few minutes past 9 pm...we were actually fetched by josh's brother at the terminal...

it was indeed fun since we all had a sorta reminiscing of all that has happened during our college days...then we also had few glasses of mixed colt 45/red horse/sanmig light. don't dare ask me how it tastes 'cause it really sucked!!hehe...

we actually didn't stay awake until the wee hours since may iba pa ring bisita si josh, but we had time to somehow chat with them...i was surprised pa nga once kase marvin, one of josh's friend asked me about something in kapampangan, eh as in hindi ko sha naintindihan so i needed tere's help pa to interpret it.

we headed off josh's room at about 12:30 am, that is after some chatting at their terrace...as we enter his room, pau, tere and czar immediately dozed off to sleep...i bugged mark and rommel not to sleep yet since i cannot sleep kase i am used to sleeping na nga in the morning...but all my efforts were to no avail kase natulog din sila...i was about to get my sleep at around 3 am na...but the good thing is that i wasn't part of the video josh took while they were sleeping...haha!!after an hour and a half, we woke up na din kase we need to accompany pau and tere to the tryke terminal kase they need to be in Manila early morning...and after that, as soon as we got back at josh's house, we again slept...actually, mark, rommel and czar went to sleep again...i was not able to sleep already so i bugged them na lang up to the point na naiinis na sila and they can't do anything but to get up...

When they got up, nag-asaran pa sila on who would take a bath first, but after that long arguing, shempre si czar pa din ang nauna...hehe...right grasyong?!?!after that, we had our breakfast, then rommel took a bath and we were all set to go home...hinatid kame ng kuya ni josh sa jenra mall to take a jeepney ride going villa i dont know the name and a jeepney ride again going san fernando...by this time, asaran na kame kase i was feeling totally sleepy na talaga...well, they can't blame me, i've warned them naman na eh...after almost half an hour of travelling, we arrived at san fernando, then walked some meters going to victory liner station where we will be riding...upon arriving there, we waited for 30 minutes or so for a bus to come...at this point, sobrang pangttrip na ang ginagawa nila sakin kase they can't talk to me properly na...so when the bus came, i hurriedly went up then find a place...tas si czar headed for gapo na, so kame na lang ni mel and mark...after paying, i dozed off to sleep na and woke up only nung nasa cubao na kame...hehe

i could never forget this trip since a lot has transpired out of it...i won't elaborate much about it, but czar, rommel, pau, mark and josh knows what i mean by that...all i can say is, we really had fun...and we're looking forward to going back there...probably by christmas, right josh?hehe...

Happy birthday josh!!!and yeah, that shirt is another pink one for you!!! *wink*wink*

Btw, after six months of being on a probationary status, i am now a regular employee...yup guys, you heard it right, PS Batch 167 are regular employees already...and i know, it calls for a celebration...just can't help it, we're so happy on our regularization, all hardwork and personal somethings paid off..hehe...kudos guys!!and for those leaving us already, we know you have reasons why you came up with those decisions...mamimiss namen kayo but definitely, our friendship won't stop there...magkikita-kita pa din tayo guys!!!

dOiNkS!

2005-10-18T05:43:00.000-07:00

They say that friends will always be on your side whatever happens, whatever the weather is...and indeed I have proven it with the out of town trip I had yesterday with Dave and Mark...actually, it was not really planned...the original plan was just malling-plain malling...but it ended up going to cavite...we cannot think of any mall where we can go to since we were just sick and tired of almost all the malls here...Dave suggested that we go to Baguio- eh sobrang layo naman if magbabalikan kame,so we dropped that one. He then suggested that we go to SM Bulacan...and because we do not feel like going there, we again dropped that idea...Then he suggested that we go to SM Bacoor, then go to Rhiane's place...Mark and I thought it was a great idea so we agreed...

We first went somewhere along Recto kase may bibilhin ako...then nagtrip na naman kame so we bought 3 eyeglasses- yung parang sa mga nerd - yung may black frames...one for each of us...hehe...then we rode a cab going SM Manila to meet up sana with Racquel...Unfortunately, she cannot go with us na daw because of some reasons so kameng tatlo na lang...We first had our late lunch at Tokyo, Tokyo and it was care of Yslapot...yummy talaga ng Beef Gyudon and Red Tea nila!hehe...Then we went to Radio City to buy something there...After that, we went window shopping for cellphone units we are all dying to have...After we made ourselves drool over those phones, we decided to buy something para ipasalubong kila Rhiane...we ended up buying donuts as well as snacks...ang nakakatawa, Dave was the one holding our basket, empty pa sha shempre, but when we looked at it, sobrang dame na ng foods na nakalagay...parasite attack na naman ang ginawa niya...hehe

After that, we headed towards the bus station na, took pics inside the bus...then eat, then tahimik...after alomst 2 gruelsome hours of travelling, we were able to reach Tejero, Cavite, but wait, all the while we thought alam ni Dave yung bababaan, hindi naman pala, so I gathered all my guts to ask yung babaeng katabe namen, and buti na lang talaga mabait sha...as we were about to go down the bus, may malaking box na nakaharang sa way...as in sobrang laki talaga ng box,nakakahiya nga dun sa box eh...so yun...then we need to ride a jeepney pa...so sakay kame...tas sabe ni Dave, 5 minutes lang daw,so kame naman ni Mark, antay lang...then when i noticed na lagpas na yung 5 minutes, I asked Dave ulit, sabe ko, malapit na ba?sabe niya, oo,malapit na...when i noticed na medyo di din niya ulit alam yung bababaan namen, I told him, malapit na nga,malapit na tayong mawala!so i asked na naman, yun na lang ata ang role ko eh, to ask always...hehe

But anyway, nakarating din naman kame kila Rhiane...and we really had fun!!!Kahit na tatlo lang kame na nagtravel nila Mark and Dave, ang katumbas naman nun, sobra pa sa tatlo...hehe...Ayun...umalis ata kame kila Rhiane past 11 na eh...then we rode a tryke until sa sakayan dapat namen ng bus...but wala ng bus so we decided to take an FX na lang since medyo late na eh plus umuulan pa ng malakas!!! When we were inside the FX na, the first thing we did was to eat...pero shempre binigyan namen si kuyang driver...tas hindi pa rin maubos yung kwentuhan namen...eto pa, Mark even narrated yung mga kaengotan ko when we were in college, as in in detail talaga, so si Dave naman...tuwang tuwa!!!as in nakakahiya sa ibang pasahero sa FX, para nga kameng me batang kasama na kailangang laging sawayin eh...hehe...but kahit ganon yung si Dave, mahal namen yun...

When we were in Lawton na, shempre malakas pa din ang ulan...eh isa lang yung payong namen, tas mejo sira na din sha, so you could just imagine yung pagaagawan namen nung time na yun...pero shempre, mga walang patawad, picture pa din in the midst of the slightly heavy rain...tas nag FX ulit kame, Fairview yung sign board since si Mark yun yung destination, kame naman ni Dave, sa Morayta bumaba...kung saan kame nagpunta?secret na yun...Well, alam ni MArk and Rakel kung saan kame napadpad, but my story stops here na...hehe

It was an extraordinary day for me...I mean, we do not have a huge amount of money in our handes yesterday pero we had the guts to travel that far...sobrang enjoy talaga!!!Sana maulit ulit yun, grabe it was one heck of fun!!! Mas masaya pa nga yung biglaang lakad na ganito eh, wala nang arte arte, go lang!!!hehe...

Maybe if I'll be given copies of the pics, I can post it here...in the meantime, mag-imagine na lang muna tayong lahat...hehe

What the?!?!?!

2005-10-14T01:43:00.000-07:00

There are a lot of new and wonderful things happening to me these days, indeed something to look forward to...I have changed the skin of my blog and its kinda an achievement for me, since I asked less help from Drake this time (i repeat, less, i didn't mean, i did not ask help, ok..hehe)...I was supposed to have a "COFFEE" skin c/o Anne but I had a hard time editing it, so I changed it, but still, thanks Anne!!!

We will be having our shifts changed probably at the end of this month, which means I'll be having different time again, but I just hope Drake's sched will still be the same as mine para masaya...*wink*wink*

Come October 26, I'll be going to some place and I'm quite excited about it...hehe..Apparently, I cannot disclose where this place is because of personal reasons, but hey, I'll be having fun and surely, I'll be ranting about it after...just wait for my future posts and from there, you can get a grasp of where I really had been...sounds mysterious eh? :-)

I really can't think of anything to write down here as of the moment...probably, if something new happens again and I am in the mood to write about it, then maybe I'll have this post updated...i just wish things stay as how they are right now, or if ever it is to be changed, would still make me happy...

PiCs At LaSt!

2005-10-09T13:19:00.000-07:00

i was able to have a glimpse of the pics that rakel took at the blast we had last October 1, thanks to her friendster photo album...here, take a look at it and see for yourself what we mean when we say fun ...hehe

i am pretty sure that the blast we had that day would not be the last time we will be together...there'll be more to come still...in the meantime, another semester just ended and they are having the best of it...more pics are yet to come, just wait and see..

A DaY oF LoVe aNd Fun...

2005-10-07T00:19:00.000-07:00

*I was able to watch Game 2 of the UAAP Men's Basketball at the Big Dome yesterday with my friends. I can say it was indeed a good fight between the two teams as well as to their followers. Tension really filled the air as banners saying "oops, walang batukan!" and "maging sports ka yeo!" can be seen.But still, it was FEU who went home victorious. Congrats FEU Tams!

*Anne Borja went to watch the game with me...'twas her first time to watch it ever live...i can really see her excitement as we were reaching the big dome...ei, anne, hope you enjoyed your picture taking at the big dome...err, your watching i should've said...

*I really had a terrible sore throat yesterday. Maybe because of the yelling we all did to cheer the Tams...Added to the fact that I wasn't really feeling well since Monday...I'm not yet good until now, I was suppossed to have my PTO but then I opted not to go through with it...but I hope to get better before this week ends... No wonder, whenever I have a call, customers kept asking me if everything's fine with me bacuaes it seems like my voice comes form deep down under...hehe

*I sat right next to Josh at the Big Dome...and I was again lost...I dunnow, maybe there is really something in him that makes me go nuts...hehe...But 'twas fun! And I'm glad that somehow, we are now on speaking terms...

*I came to work 25 minutes late because Anne and i had a hard time exiting the big dome...grr!!!so sad, my sched ad's not the priority anymore when shift bid comes...i can't get pao's sked...peace pao!

*Today is the start of the final exams of my friends. I just want to wish them luck, dave, kel, dwight, czar, josh, joma, ryan, guianne, bury, cha, pau, tere, mel, paul, ervene and the rest, GOOD LUCK!Ipasa niyo 'tong sem na to ah...hehe and hey, sembreaks' fast approaching, what is our plan? keep me informed, alrighty?! Happy sembreak to you guys! Don't forget my pasalubong once you come back to Manila...

*Tomorrow, October 8 will be one of my teammates' birthday...Just want to greet him a happy birthday...Arn, tumatanda ka na...hehe...As promised, I already have the item that you asked me to buy for you...Fresh from the University Belt...hehe...Happy Birthday again!

*Just wonderin', why are there people who doesn't want you to be happy...They would always do whatever would hurt you...and would always give you that thriumphant smile everytime you are feeling down...holy cr*p! i just wish people like this would vanish in this world...they DO NOT DESERVE to live!

*I am in toxic mood right now...I really still feel sick...I still have 2 days to go before my work week ends...phew! What's just keeping me going these past few weeks are the thought s of my friends and the fun I had with them...yes, I love them so much and NOBODY, yes, nobody could ever change that...

*It was really a day filled with love and fun for me...Can't really get 'nuff of my friends and I am still looking forward to spending the best times with them! We rock! Haha!

*Lastly, for spoiler x's satisfaction, let me just remind you, I AM STILL A STUBBORN AND HARD - HEADED person....in case, you forgot...And by the way, I was with "y" yesterday until 8 pm, in fact i sat next to him...too bad, you didn't see us...I am sorry, I cannot change it and I opted not to change it...In a world were people like you were created, sad to say, I have to be one...

sPoiLeR "x"...

2005-10-05T02:11:00.001-07:00

I am not feeling well today...Well, it is an admixture of everything that spiced up my entire week...Firstly, I have fever-slash-cough-slash-colds, and its kinda irritating since my work requires talking and talking and talking, and I am really having a hard time...Secondly, I again had a word war with one of those people who seems to not understand things clearly...so to speak, a very narrow-minded person...let's call him "x"..."x" wants me to stay away from one person, who happens to be my "inspiration", let's call him "y", 'cause according to him, "y" is too young...but can't "x" see the fact that we were just having the best of what life has to offer for us...We aren't doing anyhting wrong to set records straight...we are just STARTING to be friends!!!what made the scenario worst is one of our helpers even told "x" that i was in an intimate moment with "y"...du-u-h!?!?!?, i never held "y"'s hand even for a second, then how could i be in such an intimate moment?!?!?Added to that fact is that we are not so close friends...we hardly talked with each other...then how come?!?!?!well, maybe, it was just a product of their much adcvanced imagination...can't blame them...

Sometimes, being narrow minded brings out a lot of problems...I pity "x" for thinking this way...I thought "x" is intelligent and accordingly, knows what the truth is from what is not...yeah right...you know, but how come you never knew that there is nothing going on between me and "y"?!?!?!You just made me more mad at you... i thought everything will turn out well after i graduate, but i was wrong...sad to say, you can never get my trust, never...I won't confide anyhting to you...I trust my friends more than i trust you!!!I just hope you can live your life peacfefully knowing that you are ruining someone else's life!!!There is only an inch more left on my patience,don't let it reach its limit 'cause if that happens, i'll be hating you...don't underestimate what i can do if my patience reaches its limit...you know me well enough...

Honestly, I am freakin f*ck*n sh*t mad at "x"...my reasons counts over a hundred of what you can ever imagine...I hope i'll be able to get better until tonight...no more fever and all...Anyway, I am looking forward to watching a bball game with my friends tomorrow...and of course, with "y"...but if not, i hope i can hide what i am really feeling...i don't want to spoil our day tomorrow...well, wish me luck... :-(

A bLaSt fRoM tHe PaSt...

2005-10-01T23:58:00.000-07:00

I celebrated my birthday with my friends yesterday...Si Sheng and anne arrived just in time for lunch after their grueling search for our place. Pero hindi sila mashado nagtagal kase they still have their shift later that evening...In the afternoon, yung mga high school friends ko naman yung dumating, sila kenneth and jobe...i was so happy kase i wasn't able to see them for quite a long time na din...after they arrived, shempre rest rest lang then kwentuhan kase my college friends would be arriving late at night pa...we, well, they sang their hearts out sa videoke and talagang kinareer nila ang pagkanta...hahaha...shempre, we also took time to drink red wine kahit mejo early pa for it...we just can't help it kase eh...

A little past dinner time naman, dumating yung isa kong friends back in college, si markyu...ayun, kwento kwento lang...After a little while naman, dumating na din si ashti...

I thought parating na yung mga friends ko kase I estimated their travel time na by 9, dadating na sila sa amin since they will be leaving their meeting place at 8:00 pm...And goodluck naman sa akin, when I called up, paalis pa lang sila...hehe...And they even told me, they have a surprise for me...per I had the gut feeling na na that surprise is not a what but a who...hehe...

And at long last, by 10 pm, dumating na din sila, but that was after how many minutes ng paghahanap ng place namen...actually lahat ng nagpunta complained of how far our place is...hehe...so yun nga, when they arrived, it was by batch...yun first batch,sila mark ysla...so yun nga, they keep on telling me na they have a surprise for me...as if naman di ko pa alam eh...tas yun nga, after how many minutes, and also quite a long time of searching for our place, dumating na sila czar with their ultimate surprise for me, none other than josh!!!well, i must admit i was happy with his presence, pero at first, i was lost kase i didn't expect that he would come nga kase he's going home pa in pampanga...pero lucky me, naconvince din sha ni dave, kaya dave, i owe you one this time...mwuah!hahaha...

Shempre, they had their dinner first...then after that, picture picture...we are all photo addicts kase eh...tas yun nga, kwento kwento, they started the sober session with few glasses of red wine muna, then lumabas na kame sa may garage namen para sa inuman...we started siguro mga 11 pm...raizza started it with a song na "weak" ang title...as in that moment pa lang, i knew we would be having fun talaga...ayun kantahan galore na talaga, and si dwight, wala pang mashadong naiinom pero feeling concert na niya ang session na nagyayare...hehe...plus si markysla pa, sinabayan ng kanta na "toty bibo" with ryan as his "dancer"...while he was singing, me kanchaw pa galeng kay dwight na pang debate lang sha...pero in fairness, maganda ang boses ni dwight ha, kaya nga, i crush him na eh...hahaha...peace out sa nasasagasaan ko...you know who you are...hehe...

They sang until mga 2 am while finishing a number of beers and tuksuhan on the sides...siguro, we wouldn't stop singing kung hindi lang kame pinastop ng isang tao...pero that's just fine kase because of that, we were able to have a truth or dare game, and a sort of confession...kaya sorry na lang to those people who missed out that fun event...kase naman tutulog tulog ng maaga eh...i'll give you a hint of what we talked about...yung mga tipong, assess your masculinity, what do you hate about me, naaasar ako pag tumatawa ka and the likes...see, it was fun, wasn't it?!?!?!hehehe...

We all went inside the house lang nung umulan na ng malakas, but that didn't stop us from what we were talking about...that was around 4 am na...tas yun kwentuhan pa din...as in....tas kame naman ni dave, how many times lumabas to check if may store na na bukas for our breakfast but unluckily, wala pa...so when ervene decided na mauuna na sha umuwe, i volunteered na din to accompany him hanngang sa may sakayan para nga makabili na ako ng breakfast namen. i was planning na ako lang talaga na nag maghahatid kase nga i know sober na yung iba plus inaantok na din yung iba...pero ayun, sumama si taizza, dave nad josh sa akin, imagine,isa lang ihahatid namen, apat kame...ayun, so bumili na kame ng breakfast...tas nung pauwe na kame sa house, eto namang si dave at raizza, kame na naman ni josh ang napagtripan, kame ang pinagtabe sa loob ng tryke at sila naman, sa backride...sorry josh 'bout this one! :-) tas yun, nung nakarating na kame sa bahay, tulog pa din ang ilang tao, by this time, it's already past 6...niluto na namne yung breakfast na hotdog tas tinawag na namen sila to eat...aba at dito na nagkaalaman ng mga taong parang mantika matulog...hehe...

After breakfast, kwentuhan ulit...nagjojoke kame na para kameng nasa bahay ni pinoy big brother...we even named ourselves after every person sa bahay ni kuya....tas si mark si big brother...we were having so much fun at eto namang si guianne, nakaramdam ng something...so nagpunta sha ng cr...eh after a few minutes nakaramdam naman si racquel so he told guianne na bilisan, so nagmadali naman si guianne...when kel entered na, ayun, nagkatawanan na kameng lahat...siguro, you'll get what i mean with that na...then, si dwight and czar, tulog pa din...pero kinulit namen sila ng kinulit until etong si czar, hindi na nakayanan gumising na pero si dwight, up to the last minute talaga, tulog pa din..hehe

Tas ayun, by 8:10, talagang they decided to go home na since yung ibang tao, may pupuntahan pa...but it was really fun, i can say na sobrang nag-enjoy talaga ako, and i hope pati din sila...kaya sa mga kasama ko sa bahay ni kuya, iisa-isahin ko kayo ha...shempre ke josh, talagang dapat una eh,hehe...thank you ng sobra, i didn't expect that you would come kase nga we hardly talk naman with each other, pero still you came, thank you talaga!!!and about dun sa sinabe ko dun sa game naten, satin na lang lahat yun ha, and sorry din kase hindi ka din natulog...hehe, eto in no particular order na ha...ke mark, kuya, salamat sa pagallow niyo na magparty kame sa bahay mo...hehe...at tama ba namang magshades ng alas dos ng madaling araw ha?, ke rommel, thank you din and i hope na nakarating ka sa house niyo ng maaga, ke czar na kahit natulog lang all night, thank you din, and kahit bad trip ka, nagpunta ka pa din...i hope by now, ayos ka na, ke rakel, happy birthday sa yo and remember, you should always seek the power of divine intervention ha...thanks, ke bury, na kahit antok na antok na, pinilit pa din na ubusin ang beer niya, ke cha, remember, masama magmura and ang bibliya, wag kalilimutan ha, thank you, and i think tama ka, hindi sha natulog kase natakot na mashot-gun wedding,haha...ke pau, thank you din, bantayan lage si czar ha,ke neil, na madalang naman na nagsalita, thank yoou din at nakayanan mo ang topak namen sa ulo, ke ervene, asa...hehe...salamat chaka lage mo lang tatandaan yun sinabe namen sayo date, ke dave, sobrang thank you, alam mo naman yun level ng happiness ko kagabe di ba...basta iba talaga, hehe,ke bjorn, na nagtry na magstay awake ng matagal, thank you, ke paul, na ayaw magcomment sa mga issues sa classroom, bait mo naman, thanks...ke guianne na ipupunish ni kuya dahil sa ginawang fumigation sa bahay niya, thank you...ke danilo, na ayaaw umamin kung sino itong nahuhumaling sa kanya, salamat din,ke raizza, thank you,tsaka lage mong tandaan ha, me limit ang paglapit mo sa kanya,hehe...ke ryan na walang ginawa kundi magpic, thank you, andame ko tuloy memories sa birthday na ito...thank you...at ang souvenir ha, wag kalimutan the next time magpunta sa bahay...and lastly ke dwight, ang hirap mo palang gisingin...hehe...thank you sa free concert mo kaninang madaling araw...hehe...At sa lahat ng kasama ko sa game, atin na alng ang sinabe ko kanina kung anong rate yun ha...hehe...i just hope wala akong nakalimutan, basta thank you talaga...

It's nice to know na sa mga ganitong time, you still have your friends na magsheshare sa happiness na nafifeel mo...basta, this event is one heck of a birthday na hindi ko makakalimutan...in the first place, eto yun una nateng time na magbonding ng overnight, tas andameng secrets na nagcome out...basta, ther best talaga kayo!!!astig!!!i'm looking forward na magkaron pa tayo ulit ng ganitong gimik and this time, dadamihan na naten ang mga favorite foods ninyo after ma-sober sa beer, ang gelatin at ang buko salad...hehe...sa mga hindi nakasama, well, you missed the fun again, sorry!!!hehe

I am now in the office, still fresh from the blast we have last night...i haven't gotten any sleep yet pero everything that has happened last night were enough reasons na masabe ko na kahit wala akong tulog, ok lang talaga, kase i had one of the best time!!!!thank you sssssssssssssssooooooooooooooooooo much guys!!!!!!!!i'll be seeing you again soon, that is pag may time na ako ulit...hehe...just always remember, we rock!!!MMMMMMMMWWWWWWWWWUUUUUUUUAAAAAAAAAHHHHHH!!!!!!

Don't worry, to see what i really mean when i said we had fun., pics are soon to come...hehe

tHe DaY I sAiD SaYaNg!

2005-09-24T08:05:00.000-07:00

I feel so sad today...Isama pa na naiinis ako dahil sa mga nangyare ngayon...First, I won't be able to go with drake, jr, anna and the rest sa greenbelt all because i have my shift tonight!!!!grrr!!!We were supposed to celebrate anna banana's birthday there and party all night pero to no avail...i will be stucked here with my headset until 6 in the morning!!!I just hope they'll have fun!!!sayang, i won't be enjoying with them...*sad*sad*

Secondly, and I think eto yung talagang pinanghihinayangan ko...hehe...I was to attend the General Assembly of the Political Science Society kanina, I was all set to go...I swapped scheds na with ross, a team mate, para nga I could go, kaya lang, I woke up 4 pm na!!!Nakakainis talaga!!!Tere and Dave texted me na nung umaga, and I told them na I would come kapag nagising ako, and really I tried so hard na magising ng mga 10 or 11 am para mahkahabol ako...pero nung nagmulat ako ng mata, 4 pm na!!!Wala na, I can't come na...may shift pa kase ko by 9 pm...

Adding to my grief pa...nagpost pa si rakel ng mga pictures nila while they were having ssssssoooooooo much fun, almost kumpleto yung mga friends namin, ako lang ata ang wala!!!and my major disappointment, she was able to be with josh sa pictures nila....waaaah!!!!!Blame my waking up super late, I wasn't able to make my moves to him!!!If you want to know what I am talking about, check out rakel's site...too bad for me!!!

Naiinis ako, naiinis ako, naiinis ako...pero wala na akong magagawa...Basta, sayang talaga!!!I guess, all I have to do right now is to sit here, accept calls, and wait until the clock strikes 6 in the morning...i love my work, i love my work, i love my work!!! yes, i love it! :-)

Argh!!!

2005-09-23T07:08:00.000-07:00

The Political Science Society will be having its annual General Assembly tomorrow and argh!!!, I won't be able to come...It is so saddening on my part since I won't be seeing Josh plus the fact that Rakel will be giving him "the moves"...but hey, kel, you know your limits...i just hope they'd have a great time tomorrow...

Tere, Joma, Dave,Bury, Pau, Rhiane, Kel, Czar, Dwight, Paul, Ervene, Rommel and the rest of the gang -- have fun!!! And don't forget to share the pics with me...at least, even through picture I can feel the fun...nyahaha!!!

I Am Me...

2005-09-22T00:32:00.000-07:00

I got a beautiful picture of sunset in drake's folder...wala lang, during moments like these, i love seeing pictures such as this one...it somehow soothes me specially when i feel really really down...

I'm currently not in the mood today...Something happened this morning and it really got into my nerves... I'm just wondering why there are people who can't understand???people who think they are the most intelligent and knows everything???people who wants you to be strong and to fight yet when you defend yourself against them would get mad???this morning's event really made me think...am i really that stubborn and hard-headed?!?!?i exerted all my efforts to live up to their expectations, but still to no avail, all you would hear from them are words you wouldn't want to hear...it's hurting to know that the people you expected to be by your side in moments like this are the people who gives you so much pain...

Yes I am stubborn, hard-headed but I know when not to be one...I know my limits...people need not tell me!!!I am sick and tired of people like the ones I've mentioned...no matter how long my patience is...yet it reached its limit...I think it's enough....they should get the dose of their own medicine...

God knows how hard I try to be what they want....but it's simply not me...when i know i am right, i would fight for it even if it means chaos...i guess this is my nature, and nobody can ever change this...i need the solitude i never experienced since you came...you made my life like hell...yet i thank you for ALL the things you keep on telling me you did for my happiness...yeah right...let's stop this nonsense once and for all..mind your own business and i'll mind mine...that would be the end of it...

Nostalgic..

2005-09-21T04:02:00.000-07:00

I miss my cousins in Canada...Matagal na din kase kameng hindi nagkikita eh...

I just hope I'll get the chance to see them this october...

Belated happy 14th birthday to Joy last September 17 and advance happy 13th birthday to ACE on October 11...

Love you guys...mwuah mwuah!!

UnFoRgEtTaBLe DaY...

2005-09-21T00:10:00.000-07:00

I went to FEU yesterday just to wait for Mark until 5 pm so that we could go to Megamall where another Mark, Mark Yu was waiting for us...Supposedly, we were to watch a movie and dine out...unfortunately, certain things happened and whoala!, we weren't able to go...

Hay, ayoko na nga magganitong post, its so not me eh...i'll just switch to my usual kikay mode...hehe...

Ayun nga, di kame natuloy pumunta ng Megamall kagabe which means hinayaan nameng magintay si Mark Yu don ng matagal, poor Mark!!!anyway, nagsorry na naman kame and sabe niya iresched na lang daw namen...Ano nga ba yng reason kung bakit kame hindi natuloy? First, kase nagstay kame sa department and hindi tinantanan ni sir mortel until we were able to finish the food na pinipilit niya...hihihi...Second, yung mga friends namen na third year, nagpaantay pa...sabe pa ni dave, meron shang pasalubong sa amin,masarap daw...yeah, he's right, it turned out na ang kanyang masarap na pasalubong ay shingaling...anyway, thanks a bunch dave, at least naalala mo kame...love you po!!!

As usual, ang pagkikita kita namen kagabe ay isang malaking kaguluhan na naman...ganon naman talaga kame eh, pag nagkikita, akala mo laging matagal bago nagkita ulit where in fact the last time we saw each other was just last week...pero still, masaya pa din sha kase alam mo na they consider each one essential para maging masaya kameng lahat...and i'm also looking forward na makabonding sila sa october 1, kaya guys, ang hindi magpunta, may sapak sa akin!!! :-)

And I almost forgot, kahapon was an unforgettable day for me...i was able to see josh and kinausap niya ko...well, it was not like a usual conversation pero masaya na 'ko dun...kase naman, if you would just know the entire story, ay naku, you would perfectly understand...sobrang nasa cloud 9 ata ako kahapon because of that...Thanks to nessie...ei, I owe you one...mwuah mwuah!!!

Wala lang...I feel so happy and blessed to have these people around me...not for anything else, but just because their friendship makes me feel something na hindi pwedeng i-compare sa material things, lagi lang sila anjan whenever i need them...Mark, Czar, Dave, Joma, Tere, Rhiane, Rakel, Paula, Nessie, Andrew Faye, Bury, Cha, si Josh - pede na rin iconsider na friend!, Dwight, Paul, Ervene - salamat ng madami...Actually, they are just a part of a big bunch of people whom i consider my friends...anjan pa sila bibing, radney na matagal ng hindi nagpapakita sa amin kaya nakakamiss na, chief,markyu, kay, elia, ekai, eloi - whom i saw sa megamall nung monday...mishu na,yumi,mama bear...basta the list goes on and on...

I am hoping that we will be seeing each other soon...as in soon na talaga,matagal na kase kameng hindi naggeget - together eh... and i'm sure, it'll be so much fun again...

And by the way, I just want to greet Bibing happy birthday today, September 21...Bibing, thanks so much!!!You are my special friend and my worst enemy rolled into one...hehe...loveyou po!!!mwuah!!!Also, just want to greet my bigbro, LJ who'll be celebrating his birthday on th 22nd of September...goodluck bigbro!!!!mwuah mwuah!!

Also, thank you ke andrew faye for greeting me in advance...hehe...hope to see you soon...

I guess this is it for this post...I just came back from my rest days and am still conditioning myself to work again...

Blogger break...

oNe HeCk Of A dAy...

2005-09-18T00:05:00.000-07:00

I miss them sssoooooo much!!!

Yesterday was not a normal day for me...let's just say i stepped a little out of my routine to get certain things done...which in the end was only half-way achieved...i swapped scheds with one of my team mates so that i could accomplish those things still required for our yearbook...yes, our yearbook...until now, it hasn't been released yet...thanks to all those hard headed seniors batch '05 of AB Political Science for not showing up or even text me...so much for that...

but despite that misfortune, yesterday turned out a very nice day for me...i got the chance to bond with my college best friend bibing whom i haven't bonded with for quite some time already...i missed her so much and the meeting we had last night was so wacky...as in...

i also had the chance to bond with third year students who became my friends in the long run...rhiane, racquel, moi and mark had our late lunch (shall i consider it lunch guys?) at 3:00 pm..we talked about so many stuff that we didn't notice the time...after that, me and mark headed to excel and there we spent like an hour or two bloghopping, friendster-ing and others...i also edited my blog since i was having a hard time opening it...thank god, it's up and good right now...by 6:00 pm, we have agreed to wait for a friend who's in deep sorrow for not being able to go with the rest of the gang in Quezon...poor Alexis!!!hehe...by 7:30, here he comes...alexis with a bunch of our friends and not-so friends, and of course,josh...but the sad thing is that josh have to leave early 'cause i think he'll be going home somewhere...(better not tell it...)by 8:30, still i'm at morayta, stuck with the chitchatting that we have, not remembering that i still have my shift for that night...poor me....i went to work 28 minutes late...

anyway, my college friends and I are planning to have some bonding time out of town...well, i just wish, everything turns out fine...and before i forget, me and mark saw two good friends at Jollibee yesterday...your friends, right...hehe...

And rakel, don't you worry, everything that we talked about last night will be a secret...and you need not worry, he still has hope...you only need divine intervention...hahaha...Czar, Paul,Rhiane, Guianne, Dwight, Raizza and her cousin, thanks for the bonding time we had last night...I am looking forward to more bonding time with you guys...Mark, I'm sick and tired of you...we need some time away...and Bhie, it's nice to see you again...i've missed you so much and i tell you, last night's fun would not be the last...just wait and see...Tere, Paula, Bury, Joma and Dave, you missed a lot guys...we'll be waiting for your pasalubong okay...hehe

I came to work late but I was so happy with the day's happening that i did not worry about being late...anyway, this will be the last time i'll be going to work a little late...i won't promise...i just hope...

And by the way, if you're wondering why this post is written in the English language...wala lang...it's just for a change...walang pakialaman, gusto ko lang...kiber!!!

At LonG LasT...

2005-09-17T01:34:00.000-07:00

All along I thought I would never be able to open my blog again coz everytime I am attempting to open it, the freaking computer at work always would not let me...f***!

Wait, kala niyo matino na no...uh-oh..this is not still...hehe...Sobrang happy lang ako kase naoopen ko na ulit yung blog ko...yun nga lang sa office,hindi pwede...maybe ni-surf control na nila ko...(duh, as if pwede naman yun,hehe) Kaya dun sa mga nagtatanong kung bakit hindi nila maopen yung blog ko, ke Diva Jayna at kung sino - sino pa, well hindi ko rin alam...siguro din hindi kayang i-read ng mga computers sa office ang mga kaartehan ko...

I feel so happy kase someone added colors again to my oh - so boring lovelife...sana lang...hehe But anyway, I am also happy for my madam etchos kase at long last, may lovelife na din sha...at madam, hinay hinay lang kay sir ah...baka masobrahan, tandaan may gimik pa tayo ng iyong panata soon!!

I miss working on my usual shifts na na straight...These past few weeks kase, lage akong graveyard...I've nothing against being in graveyard kaya lang, I miss being with my shift-mates (if there is such a word) kase...si etchos, mommy lei, candy and arnold...yun lang...hehe

I'll be having my shift tonight at 9 pm...I just wish I wouldn't feel sleepy like the usual...today is a saturday, which means there would be less calls...phew!!!

Today is the 2005 Nestle non-stop cheerdance competition, I just hope FEU makes it to the top three again...

By the way, just want to greet my lilaznprincesscouz Joy who's celebrating her birthday today...miss you couz and I hope to see you really soon!!!

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2005-09-05T14:35:00.000-07:00

Yipee!!!rest days ko na! Matapos ang pagdoudouble shift kahapon at pagpasok ng graveyard ngayon, makakapagpahinga na ulit ako sa wakas!!! I can't wait to just sleep and stroll...medyo matagal na rin kase akong hindi nakakagala eh...and this time, I'm excited kase I'll be going out with friends whom I haven't seen for a long time...O di ba, sort of reunion ang magiging drama namen...

Actually, wala akong maisip na mailagay for this post...Masyadong na-borlogs ang utak ko this week at kinakailangan na talagang ipahinga...buti na lang at may rest days pa pala ako,kundi,naku baka tuluyan na akong maborlogs...buti na lang, kahit pano,anjan si madam etchos and mommy lei na talaga namang to the nth level ang powers...

By the way, nagtataka lang ako, ano bang meron ang mga foods sa North Park at sa tuwing kakain kame nun eh may kamalasan o kaengotan na nangyayare sa akin? Could it be na that's the consequence everytime na gagamitin namen ang resources ng office sa pagpapadeliver?hhmm...

Isa pa uling pagtataka, bakit may mga taong nagtatago pa ng pagkakacrush sa isang tao when in fact, super obvious naman...tipong hindi daw gusto, pero wag ka, yung actions niya kakaiba sa sinasabe niya...wala lang,nagtatanong lang naman...

Candz, don't worry, hindi ikaw yan ha...baka sabihin mo na ikaw pinaparinggan ko...hehe...nagtataka lang talaga ako...

WhEn (BaD) LuCk HiTs YoU...

2005-09-04T11:24:00.000-07:00

Hindi ko alam kung anong sumpa ang binigay sa akin ng self - confessed - whore na si anne borja. Matapos akong mapapayag na makipagswap ng rest days sa kanya at magdouble shift - ang maglog-in ng 3:00 pm at maglog-out ng 12 am para sa shift ko, at 1:00 am - 10:00 am para sa shift niya ay may kung ano na namang kamalasan ang nangyare sa akin...First call ko pa lang, parang gusto ko nang ibalibag ang computer sa station ko at hilahin pabalik ng Maynila si Anne...

Eto ang scenario:

Ako: Hi, this is Kim, how may I help you?

Siya: Hi, i just to ask why can't we order online with ***(pangalan ng account namen)...

Ako: Alright, so you are already registered online?

Siya: Yes...

Ako: Can I have your email address so I could pull up your record?

Siya: Sure, its.......

So ako naman, chineck ko if merong ganong account...eh wala akong makita...so hiningi ko yung first and last name niya, binigay naman niya.pero wala pa din talaga akong makita. so tinanong ko sha ulit, sabe ko if talagang registered na sha...sabe niya,hindi pa daw...eh f*** pala sha eh, di pa pala sha registered...So kahit na buwisit na buwisit na ako, mega accomodating pa din ever, kailangan eh, so niregister ko sha at binigyan ng temporary password...at nung natapos na...ayaw ibaba ang phone at itatry daw niya kung magwowork...so ako naman, confident na i was able to register him, sabe ko sige...

so tinry niya i-log,ayaw daw, vinerify ko yung e-mail address, tama daw, inispell ko yung password niya, tama din daw, so carry lang...eh ang tagal - tagal na, hindi pa rin siiya makaaccess samantalang ako, napasok ko na yung account niya!!!so mega hintay pa din ako...siguro mga 10 trials nila, wala pa din!!!hindi talaga yun exag, kahit tanong niyo pa kay ross...so ang ginawa ko, inispell ko na naman, tama naman daw,eh ang tagal na, so ang tanong ko ganito:

Ako: Sir, are you sure yoou are at the **** website?

Siya: Yes, it's *****.com right?

Ako: No, it's *****.com ( kaya naman pala eh!!!!grrr!!!)

Siya: Alright, sorry, I was on the wrong page...You know, I got excited to order online...yada yada yada...(yan talaga yun sinabe niya!!!)

So ako naman hinintay ko na naman siya, eh ayaw talaga niya maka-log...hindi ko talaga kung ano yung problema ng computer niya, so sabe ko na magcall back na lang sha...sabe niya sige daw, pero hindi pa din niya binababa yung phone...so sabe ko:

Ako: Sir, I need to release this call 'cause i'll be attending to other calls...

Siya: Okay...you have a great day...

AKo: You too, thank you for calling...bye!

Pramis, sobrang nairita ako sa call na ito, umabot ba naman ako ng 30 minutes!!!!tas walang nangyare...grr!!!kapag nga naman talagang minamalas ka oh...at eto pa, matapos ang makulit na kustomer na yun na ewan ko kung pinaglihi sa kaengotan, isang española naman ang tumawag sa akin at nagsasabeng gusto niya i-reorder yung mga items dun sa cancelled orders niya, 2 yun ha, that sums to 19 items...so mega re-order naman ako, eh 6 na lang yung available, go pa din daw siya...tas nung hinihingi ko na yung card information niya, aba at ang sabe:

SIya: Do you stille neede the credite carde informatione?

Ako: Yes maam since we don't usually keep record of those...

Siya: Hold one a seconde, I'll go getite...

At ang one second niya, oo, one second nga, one second na lang at aabot na ng 25 minutes yung second call ko...Naman!!!

Hay, ewan ko ba...right now, it's 3:16 am pa lang, medyo matagal pa ang bubunuin ko dito sa second shift ko...wish ko lang, makaya ko pa...nakakadalawang call pa lang ako pero, to quote madam etchos' words, "sumasakit na ang bangs ko"...Parang lahat ng 'Kano eh naapektuhan ng Hurricane Katrina at ang sarap ipagbababato...

For now, I've got a lesson learned...huwag basta basta papayag makipagswap lalo na kapag magulo yung ka-swap mo, you'll never know what's gonna happen...

I'm sure madame pa kong maeexperience sa calls ko mamaya...next time ko na lang ulit ipopost...teka, break lang muna ko...by the way, i can't wait to see anne na, not because i miss her but because she needs to do some explaining...

DowN TiMe...

2005-09-02T01:03:00.000-07:00

I am back!!!Matapos ang ilang panahon na hindi ko man lang pinagaksayahan ng panahon na magpost sa aking blog,eto na naman ako...wala lang, i think it's time na to somehow update it...But it doesn't mean na sa hinaba haba ng panahon na hindi ako nakapagsulat dito eh walang magandang nangyare sa akin, it is definitely a big no-no...to start with, i was very happy kase i had the chance to communicate again sa mga elementary kong classmates,as in for 9 years hindi kame nagkaroon ng chance na malaman ang mga nangyayare sa amin, buti na lang ngayon,we are keeping the communication lines open...tas pati yung high school friends ko, nakakatext text ko na din...i also had the chance to bond with my friends in college...sobrang saya talaga kase we barely have time to see each other often na rin kase nga busy-busyhan ang mode ng mga kaibigan ko...pero i just want to call the attention of some of our friends na hindi nagpaparamdam sa amin,paramdam naman kayo,nakakamiss din pala kayo...hehe...sana lang hindi pa kayo baliw sa law stuff...bawe kayo samen sa sembreak ha...we'll be painting the town red...hihi...ewan ko ba, it seems like everything's going on really fine for me...sana lang wala 'tong kapalit...Add the fact pa na sobrang enjoy na ako sa account na nalipatan ko...pati yung mga ka-account ko, enjoy silang kasama pero shempre namimiss ko din naman yung mga tao sa dati kong account eh...kaya lang shempre ganun talaga...**wink**wink**

By next week, I'll be working on shifts na kahit kelan hindi ko naimagine na gagawin ko...kaya lang, the self-confessed- whore - anne - borja requested me to swap schedules with her kase she needs to go back to Cagayan de Oro daw...so agree naman ang lola...kaya by sunday, I'll be having some sort of double shifts, papasok ako ng 3 pm to 12 am, that means pag naglog-out ako, monday na sha...after an hour, I'll be logging in again to take the place of anne. Phew...good luck sa akin...sana kayanin ko...hehe...that means also na ang rest days ko would fall on wednesday and thursday instead of monday and tuesday...hay, antagal pa nun...**sigh**

Yipee!!!sumweldo na ulet kame...that means purita masangkay no more na kame!!!Pero tama ang analohiya ni mommy lei na sa oras ng petsa de peligro, kame kame lang din ang magtutulungan, ayt?!?!?and in a few days, we'll be getting our retention bonus na...saya nun!!!kaya lang..onti na lang kameng natira dito...madame na yun nag-alisan...pero tuloy pa din ang ligaya!!!

And shempre tuloy pa din ang pagiging colorful ng mundo ko...don't mind asking me why...if you know me well, you would get it...basta eto lang...i am always looking forward to going to work because of "it"...hahaha...yung mga may alam ng aking "pinakatatagong" sikreto, gets na agad yan...

Haay,wala na talaga akong maisip na isulat pa dito...I have so many things in mind na gusto ko i-share but i'm having a hard time putting it in words...next time na lang...

In the meantime, here is some sort of a survey na ginagawa ng mga taong walang magawa...like me...hihi...i just got it from an acquaintance nung highschool, si jerell...we did not become classmates even once pero we exchange hi's and hello's naman...after reading it, you would get to know me na talaga...(yuck!heller!)

1. Do you have nicknames? yes. kim ang tawag sa akin ng mga kasama ko sa work, sa bahay and yun iba kong friends...yun iba naman, kimmy.

2. Age? magt-twenty one nah...yipee!!!

3. Gender? babae po ako...

4. Birthday? 29th of September 1984

5. Zodiac sign? Libra

6. Where do you live? sa malayong bundok ng Cainta, Rizal

7. Have you been in love before? yes

8. What's your favorite color? purple tsaka green din (?)

9. Do you have any piercings or do you want any? yes. dati meron akong seven piercings for each ear, pero ngayon, tig dalawa na lang sha...

10. Which is your favorite song right now? 214

11. Do you have a tattoo or do you want one? i dont have any pero minsan parang gusto ko... ;p

12. Where do you shop most? anywhere...i don't have one favorite shop...basta pag shopping,buong SM Megamall ang nililibot ko...

13. What's your hair color? black
14. Eye color? black din...
15. How tall are you? 5'4...pero gusto ko pa sana tumangkad...

16. Do you use drugs? no way!!!

17. Do you smoke? never

18. If yes, which cigarettes? doink!

19. What kind of music do you like? any kind. pero gusto ko yung maganda ang lyrics shempre...

20. Who are your best friends? bibing and eunice

21. Who are your best "online" friends? yung pinsan ko na nasa Canada, si joy...aaaawwww...miss her so much!!!

22. What kind of make-up do you use? i am not much of a make - up person. yung basic lang talaga...gloss, blush,etc.

23. Which shampoo do you use? Pantene

24. Is your hair long or short? kinda long na din...

25. Do you like shopping? yep, specially pag may pera...

26. What do you do to have fun? go out with my friends, eat, chit chat...

27. How many phones are at your home? 9... kasama cellphones at extension phones...hihi...

28. What's your favorite food? tikoy...all time favorite...tapos crabs

29. What do you usually do during weekends? may shift ako nun, so naturally, i am stuck with my headset lang, waiting for calls...buti na lang enjoy kasama yung mga ka-shift ko pag weekends...

30. Do you sleep on your back, side or belly? sides...gusto ko kase yun may kina-cuddle eh.

31. Do you sleep with a stuffed toy? nah...i sleep with my hotdog pillow!

32. Do you sleep with lights turned on or off? off...mas masarap matulog eh..

33. What's your favorite movie? 50 first dates/A lot like love

34. Which perfume do you use? Calgon's Hawaiian Ginger

35. Do you have an own phone? yup

36. If yes, what's the number? uh-oh!

37. Which words do you say most often? "yuck!heller!"

38. Are you serious, shy, friendly or naughty? Friendly,always and naughty sometimes...*wink*wink*

39. Which car would you like to have? Mazda

40. What is special about your school? you would get to see people of all kind...hippy,freak,geek,nerd...you name it,makikita mo lahat yun dun...but despite that...there is something about these people that makes our school really special...hehe

41. Are you funny or strange? Funny!

42. What was the most embarrassing moment in your life? Nalaglag sa cab sa harap ng St. Scholastica's College...andame kayang nakakita...

43. If you had 3 wishes, what would they be? 1.) happiness for all the people i love 2.)power to read people's mind 3.) bring my mom and pop back

44. Do you want to get married? ngek...shempre oo...

45. Do you pray? yes

46. Are you a righty or lefty? righty...di ko kaliwete...hehe

47. Favorite name for a girl? Ashley Patricia

48. Favorite name for a boy? umm...joshua

49. Have you ever tried to kill yourself? never

50. Do you have any siblings? so sad wala but i wish i had even just one...

51. What's the first thing you notice about the opposite sex? Lips and eyes

52. Do you like to play tricks on other people? Sometimes...but not to the extent na i'm hurting their feelings already...

53. What was the craziest trick you ever played? i don't think i did a trick which is not crazy...so couldn't think of the craziest among 'em..hehe...bad bitch!

54. What's your favorite class at school? im done with school...pero nuon, ang favorite ko is yung soc-anthropology class ko...sobra kasing enjoy eh...plus I had a very good prof pa dun...

55. What time is it now? 4:36 am, CST

56. Do you want to study at college/university? I did! And sobrang worthwhile yun experience na yun...

57. To which school do you go to? (did na sha, I'm done with it na eh...) Far Eastern University

58. What degree did you earn? Bachelor of Arts Major in Political Science

59. Do you like your classmates? Oo naman, they are so much fun to be with!!!Pag magkakasama kame, there is really no dull moments for us. Plus pictures on the sides pa yun...they made my college life soooooooooo much fun...hay...really miss them much!!!!!

60. Do you like video games? nope...i never really loved it...

61. Do you sleep a lot? i used to...but now hindi na...kulang ang time eh...

62. Do you get along well with your parents? I don't have them na...

63. Have you ever lied to them? yep...i think everybody goes through that stage naman talaga eh...

64. If yes, why? kase there are things na hindi nila mashado naiintindihan...so better keep it within our circle of friends na lang...

65. Are you rich, poor or in between? Maybe in between...

66. How many rooms does your house/flat have? 4 bedrooms

67. What do you want to become? A lawyer...that is if i will be passing the bar...hehe...tapos, successful in whatever i'll be doing...

68. How does your room look like? ayos naman...mejo kumpleto naman sa mga gamit...hehe

69. What color is your toothbrush? yung sa bahay, green and pink, tas yung sa office, violet...

70. Do you have a job? yup...

71. Favorite fruit(s)? melon,watermelon chaka apple na sinasawsaw sa asin...yum!yum!

72. Favorite vegetable? i don't eat veggies...

73. What was the best day in your life? My 24, 2005

74. Are you mommy's little girl/boy? yup kase i was able to stay with her longer compared to my dad kase he died first eh...

75. Are you daddy's little girl/boy? nope...hindi ko naman sha mashado nakasama eh...

76. Do you play a musical instrument? i used to play the piano and the flute...ewan ko lang if kaya ko pa hanggang ngayon...i've not yet tried playing it again eh...

77. Who is the cutest boy? Hmmm...mga ka-account ko...sino nga ba? *wink*wink*; Joshua Dizon *wink*

78. Do you wear nail polish right now? yep

79. If yes, which color? pink with some glittery stuff on it...hihi..

80. How many rings/bracelets are you wearing right now? none

81. What's your favorite toothpaste? close up...yun red and yun bago, tangerine burst

82. Are you tired? of being hurt... somehow...

83. Do you have any scars? Yup, sa tuhod ko...

84. Have you ever cried because of the opposite sex? Yup...mga 4 times nah...

85. Do you like lollipops? not really

86. What are you thinking right now? a lotta things...

87. Without looking, what kind of underwear are you wearing right now? A black one...yung binili ng tita ko for me...

88. What makes you laugh? anything...sobra kaseng madali akong mapatawa eh...

89. Who's your favorite teacher? elementary - miss castañeda; high school - miss versoza; college - sir asturias, sir gene

90. Do you have a driver's license? none yet

91. With how many pillows do you sleep? 7... isa sa paa, 2 sa sides, 2 sa head, isa sa likod ko, tas yung isa cuddle cuddle ko...

92. What are your favorite holidays? New Year...mas masaya kase we cousins get to really bond at this time...

93. What did you do last summer? started with my work and sumama sa outing sa clearwater.

94. Did you cry last week? yup...

95. Where were you born? manila

96. Have you ever lived somewhere else? yup...pero twice pa lang naman

97. What's your favorite Disney movie? The Little Mermaid...yun kase yung first movie ng Disney na talagang nakacatch ng attention ko eh...mga mga maraming beses ko talaga sha inulit...

98. Do you collect anything? yup...photos...

99. What does the opposite sex lack? Sensitivity

100. How many CD's do you have? About 25...

101. What kind of food don't you like at all? vegetables

102. Do you wear glasses or contacts? nope...

103. Rich and unhappy or poor and happy? rich and unhappy...im just being honest...hihi

104. Coca Cola or Pepsi? Sarsi...ayoko nung nasa choices eh...

105. What's your favorite day in the week? Thursday

106. What's your favorite month? December

107. Are you a good listener? Sometimes...kase minsan pag yung story ng isang tao, walang kwenta, I have the tendency to get irritated agad...

108. Do you like chain letters? errr!nope...nakakainis kaya yung mga ganon...

109. Are you tired from answering all those questions? hindi mashado..walang magawa eh...down time!!!

110. e - mail address: friendster and yahoo: shanzkydoodle@yahoo.com

blog: kikaynapasaway.blogspot.com

hay...kakapagod...til my next post...

P.S : The title has nothing to do with the content of this post...sadyang down time lang dito and walang magawa kaya i had the luxury of time to answer this one... ;-)

TaG Na NaMaN?!?!

2005-08-18T00:07:00.000-07:00

it feels so nice to see friends you haven't seen for quite some time again...yun yung nafeel ko nung nagkita kita kame nung mga kabatch ko sa NHO kaninang madaling araw...yep,madaling araw...as in 2:30 am...galeng yata sila sa gimik or something tas dumalaw lang dito...hay naku, the usual,super hyper na naman ang mga tao...si hetty, imaginin mo ba namang magsisisigaw sa may sleeping room...haller!?!?!,sleeping room yun hetty ha...;-) tas ang binibining paula tanquieng naman,hindi na magkamayaw sa pagtawa...basta,masaya talaga,yung mga tao nga ng experian,napapatingin na lang sa amin eh...sobrang namiss lang namen ang isa't isa...After that,mega tour naman kame sa kuta ng mga cheap ticket agents...dun naman kame nagsabog ng ingay namen, at shempre mega pabida kay hetty...wanna know why?kase po,print ad model na ang lolo...take note, hindi namen kinaya...pano ba naman,inaasar na namen about his poses dun sa ad,at ang sabe..."wala pa nga yan, eto oh..."sabay labas ng cellphone at pagpapakita ng pic niya nung mall tour niya...Aba,hindi na talaga maabot ito...hetty,libre naman jan...hehe...at eto namang si binibining paula tanquiemg,nageenjoy sa buhay resigned niya...well,it shows naman na happy siya sa naging desisyon niya eh,at ang lola,never talaga nagaabsent sa inuman...ang hirit lang nang tumagal eh,"bilisan niyo,kawawa naman ang nanay ko"...At naisip pa pala ang mother sa oras na mga 3 na ng madaling araw...hehe...peace po pau...namiss lang kita!!!

Well,hindi rin naman sila mashado nagtagal eh...talagang naglibot lang sila sa 3rd and 5th floor ng PSC kung saan sila may mga kakilala...At ang mama mia,nanghihingi nung pics ni jt...ang banat ba naman ng hetty,sige with dedication pa sa likod..."thank you for being my number one fan!"yuck!!! ;-)

Sobrang iba talaga yung feeling kapag kame kame ang magkakasama...kahit na sandali lang,sobrang gulo naman talaga...at magpahanggang sa elevator,nangttrip pa rin si jt...hetty,may araw ka rin sa akin...malapit ka na naman magresign eh...(kaya ka pala nagfile ng PTO para sa pictorial mo ha...hehe)mejo silent mode ng mga panahong ito si redrushbytes eric at schizoletski milet...siguro epekto lamang ito ng mga alak na nainom nila...hehe...pero carry pa rin naman eh...hay,nakakamiss talaga ang batch 167 ng NHO...

Anyway...binigyan na naman ako ni arnold ng something to answer...salamat arnold at may maidadagdag na naman ako sa post ko...carry ko ito,kala mo ha...

Seven things that scares me...

1. Mga place na madidilim

2. Death

3. Losing the most important people in my life

4. Dogs,ipis chaka daga

5. mga tao na kakaiba yung mga kinikilos

6. heights

7. yung view ng dagat na sobrang calm or sobrang maalon...ewan ko,sa tuwing makakaita ako ng ganon,feeling ko bumabaligtad yung sikmura ko eh...

Seven things I like most...

1. Earrings

2. photo albums/scrap books

3. tikoy/katkattat

4. sandals/slippers

5. PC na madaling ma-access lahat

6. bags

7. magazines

Seven important things in my room...

1. cd player ko

2. tv set

3. shempre yung kama ko

4. yung mga scrapbooks na ginawa ko at nung mga barkada ko nung college

5. yung kikay set ko ng mga kung ano ano, nail polish, earrings, bracelets, perfumes...basta lahat ng pampaarte ko

6. yung "study" table ko na super laki na hindi na matatawag na study table kase puto tambak na ng magazines, scrapbooks, books at kung ano ano pa

7. yung pics ko na nakadisplay nung graduation ko nung kinder, prep, grade 6, high school chaka nung college...wala lang,everytime na nakikita ko yun,natutuwa ako eh

Seven random facts about me...

1. Wala na akong parents...my pop died when i was 5 tas yung mom ko,when i was in 1st year high school...sad noh?!?!

2. Madali akong maki-jive sa kahit anong klase ng tao...madali rin akong magtrust pero once that trust is broken,ay, ibang usapan na yun

3. Friendly and bubbly akong tao...ayoko ng sad moments so if ever may mga sad moments, i try to make an effort na pagaangin yung situation

4. Pero kahit friendly and bubbly ako, I am such a crybaby!!!

5. Mahilig akong gumawa ng scrapbook, maglettering, maggupit gupit ng mga stuff na ilalagay sa scrapbook at magsulat sulat ng kung ano mang maisip ko

6. Mahilig din akong gumawa ng letters for my friends...minsan, kahit walamang special occassion, I write them letters, tas yung mga letters na yun kakaiba,may one time pa, nagsulat ako ng letter for my best friend sa plastic na banana tas dinesignan ko sha

7. I don't smoke, but I drink occassionally

Seven things I plan to do before I die...

1. Find him. Start a family

2. Finish law

3. Secure the future of my would-be children

4. Be successful

5. Travel Europe - France, Italy...lahat

6. Create a scrapbook that would contain the entire years of my existence - with friends, family and the other people who had been part of my life

7. Build a foundation na magaalaga sa mga street children at yung mga matatanda na pakalat-kalat na lang...oo, totoo yun...everytime kase na nakakakita ako ng mga ganon, kahit na sabihin pa na hawak ng mga sindikato,naaawa pa din ako eh...tas yung mga matatanda na kahit sobrang hirap na kumilos, nasa tabi tabi lang...kaya yun,gusto ko makapagpatayo ng ganon...kahit di mashado malaki basta,makaka-cater ng mga bata at matatandang ganon

Seven things that I CAN do...

1. Maglettering

2. Makipagusap sa telephone hanggang five hours

3. Tumahimik ng isang araw...seems like i can't do it,but I can...

4. Hindi lumabas ng kwarto ko for one whole day, as in andun lang ako sa loob,nanonood,nagtetext,nakikinig ng sounds,shempre hindi yun sabay sabay ha

5. Hindi matulog ng 5 days straight pero hyper pa din

6. Magtravel ng malayuan nang mag-isa

7. **Tough secret** Uminom ng 14 bottles ng red horse sa gabe tas gising pa din hanggang kinabukasan...walang hangover!

Seven things that I CAN'T do...

1. Drive

2. Go to a dark place all by myself...

3. magpoo-poo ng hindi nagbabasa ng kahit ano,be it newspaper, magazine or yung mga books ko

4. stay in front of a PC surfing for 6 hours straight

5. redesign the skin of my blog...hehe...soon i can na yan! ;-)

6. Sleep with the lights on

7. Play any other musical instrument aside form the piano

Seven things that attract me to the opposite sex...

1. eyes

2. the way he speaks, thinks, and acts

3. the manner he respects other people at all times

4. his humor

5. always on the go...hindi yung mas maarte pa sa akin na he doesn't eat this and that. he doesn't go to this place,blah blah blah

6. yung pagiging mysterious ng isang guy that would make me probe deeper and dig deep down underrrr!!!argh!

7. kapag sobrang mahal ng isang guy yung mommy niya, but not to the point na mama's boy na sha ha

Seven things that I say the most...

1. Heller!?!?!

2. Ano buh?!?!

3. Weeeeeehhhhhh!!!

4. Yipee!

5. Hay naku,ewan ko sayo...bahala ka na nga!

6. F*ckSh*t...pag sobrang bad trip na ko dun sa situation

7. Bakit?talaga?!?!

Seven celebrity crushes...

1. Drew Arellano

2. Justin Wong (Mighty Ducks pa ito ha!)

3. James Van Der Beek

4. Ashton Kutcher

5. Ryan Agoncillo

6. Borgy Manotoc

7. Paolo Araneta

Seven people I want to tag...

1. Ia

2. Lei

3. Agnes

4. Jayna

5. Love

6. Pao

7. Liza

Phew...At last natapos ko na din...hay naku arn...ang mga tag mo sa akin ha...tsk tsk tsk...

Until my next post!

a TriP dOwN MeMorY LaNe...

2005-08-11T23:47:00.000-07:00

10 YEARS AGO

1. I was in fifth grade in an all girls exclusive school - no makeups, no jewelries, skirts one inch below the knee, no folded socks...argh!!!

2. Sobrang spoiled brat ako nun - pag may gusto, iiyakan ko talaga, pag hindi binigay ng mommy ko sakin, magsisintir ako...In the end, pagbibigyan din niya ako...hehe...talk about strategies...

3. Ang alam ko nun, ang crush, walang pagkakaiba sa love - pag crush ko nun si ganito, love ko na din sha...

9 YEARS AGO

1. I started my high school life. Nagtransfer ako from an all girls school to a coed one...daming cuties!!!haha!!!

2. It was the time na nagstart na ako maglakwacha...you see, yung school na pinanggalingan ko kase eh kapitbahay lang namen so hindi ako nakakapaglakwacha...but at this point,lakwacha galore na ako...

3. Nagkaroon ako ng crush dun sa isa kong schoolmate na sabe ko familiar...yun pala,classmate ko sha nung kinder kame!!!**wink**wink**

8 YEARS AGO

1. I almost flunked scool dahil sa sobrang barkada and lakwacha...

2. I was grounded by my mom for three months. Hatid - sundo ako sa school...yup,very elementary...

3. Namatay si mommy...para nga akong sira nun eh kase at first, natuwa pa ko but later on, narealize ko na mahirap din pala...hay, nakakamiss talaga si mommy!!!

7 YEARS AGO

1. I met people who stood with me all throughout - my high school barkada. Fun yun talaga!!!

2. Nagkaroon ako ulet ng crush na schoolmate ko. This time, third year ako, tas yung crush ko, fifth grade...hehe...cradle snatching.

3. First time kong uminom ng alak! Yup, sobrang inom ang ginawa ko na hindi na ako nakapasok sa school for 3 days dahil sa allergies. This year din umalis yung mga pinsan ko papuntang Canada...sobrang close kame nung mga yun kaya iyak talaga ko nun...hay miss ko na sila...

6 YEARS GO

1. My last year in high school! Sobrang dame ng nangyare ng year nato as in!!!

2. Sumama ko sa bivouac sa Tanay...rapelling, trust fall, rolling in the mud...no choice ako, pregrad requirement sha eh,kaya go ako...

3. First time kong nagout of town kasama yung mga barkada ko na walang chaperones...as in we were all by ourselves!!!Sarap!!!

5 YEARS AGO

Well I don't remember much about what transpired this year...let's just say na nagpass by na lang sha ng mabilis...hehe...

4 YEARS AGO

1. College life, here I come!!!haha!!

2. I had my hair cut na super short, as in yung crop cut sha and 'twas the first time i ever sported such kind of hair.

3. May naging classmate ako na kapangalan nung naging crush ko nung highschool, as in eksakting pangalan,kaya lang...hanggang kapangalan lang pala sha...

3 YEARS AGO

1. My first major heartbreak!!!AAAAWWWW!!!!!

2. 'Twas the start of -ugh- my "PolSci life" - term papers, recitations, etc...hirap!!!

3. I had the first bunch of college barkada...it's not that wala akong friends nung nagcollege ako kaya lang, shempre iba yung close mo talaga...basta, yun kame kame - si Bibing, Jayson atchaka si Doll...

2 YEARS AGO

1. Naging friends kame nung ex-crush ko...take note, ex which means nung naging friends kame, di ko na sha crush...

2. Tas nagkaron ako ng crush na a year ahead sakin...tawag nila sa kanya, chubby cheeks kase daw malaki yung cheeks niya...asar nga lage yun eh...hehe...

3. Nabuo yung "Basketcase" chaka yung "Tropang Freedom" as what a lot would say...pero hindi naman talaga sha tropa...tinawag lang na ganun kase madame kame eh...tas dumami na kame ng dumami...this year din nangyare na majo nagkagulo gulo kame ng friends ko...basta, madameng issues...tas naging close kame ni ekai...hay miss her na...**sob**sob**

A YEAR AGO

1. Since umalis na yung crush kong ahead sakin, shempre naghanap na naman ako ng makakarir...nagkaroon nga, second year naman...joshua name niya...cradle snatching na naman ako...hehe...

2. Thesis,thesis,thesis plus gimik galore on the sides!!! Need I say more? haha!

3. Dumating from Canada yung mga pinsan ko...saya kase nun na lang ulit yung time na nagkita kame after almost how many years...basta, saya kaya namen nun, gimik lang sa mall, ganon...basta...the best bonding talaga namen nun...so sad lang kase konting time lang kame ulit nagkasama...pero baka daw this October or November, babalik sila para magbakasyon...yipeee!!!sana matuloy...

THIS YEAR

1. Yipee!! I earned my degree in Political Science...Magpupursue na sana ako ng law, kaya lang gusto ko muna magpahinga...Next sem? or year? siguro...hehe...Pramis, magtutuloy pa din ako...

2. I had my first job!!! I pay for my own expenses na...nakakahiya na rin kaseng manghingi pa since i'm working na...buti na lang kahit pano, natututo na ko magtipid(sabe ko kahit pano lang ha, hindi ako totally marunong na...baka may magtaas kase ng kilay jan..hehe...)

3. I had the chance to meet fun and cool peeps sa work...Mga taong makukulit at walang kiber...carry lang sa kahit ano..game sa kalokohan...basta, lahat yun ng mga taong nakasama ko sa date kong account as well as sa account ko ngayon...hindi ko makakalimutan yung sa clearwater...sarap!!!I am looking forward to more fun with these peeps!!!haha!!!

Phew! Hirap din palang maglookback sa nagdaang sampung taon mo noh?!?! Minsan sa sobrang dame ng nangyare, hindi mo na maalala...pero it's fun naman after all eh kaya carry lang...hehe...

thE rEtUrN...

2005-08-10T00:41:00.000-07:00

Hi!!!I am back again from my rest days...sarap kaya matulog ng matulog specially ang lamig lamig ng panahon tas nasa kama ka lang,yakap yakap mo yung pillow mo na sobrang lamig din...hay kung pwede nga lang magextend ng rest days eh...pero shempre,kelangan na namang bumalik sa work...as if naman sobrang nakakapagod,eh masaya din naman pumasok sa trabahao eh lalo na kapag okay yung mga kasama mo...

At sa pagpasok ko sa trabaho kanina,shempre,umuulan na naman,hay naku,nakakainis talaga,ayoko pa naman ng umaalis ng umuulan!!!bad trip talaga!!!

Pagdating ko sa work,shempre bukas agad ng mga kung ano ano...at sa pagbisita ko sa mga blogs,nakita ko ke arnold na naka-tag sa akin ang something something para sagutan...well,2 questions lang naman sha eh,kaya go lang ako...salamat arnold,sa pagtag sa akin at may magagawa na naman ako...hehe...

1. What are the things you enjoy doing even when there's no one around you?

Pag asa bahay,magsound trip...usually kase pag madameng tao sa bahay, minimal lang dapat ang volume ng cd player ko,eh pag walang tao kundi ako,aba piyesta na yun!!!Tas magtelebabad...kahit hanggang mga limang oras lang,yun pa lang ang natatry ko eh...kase pag asa bahay yung tita ko,pag-aari nun telepono,walang pwedeng gumamit ng matagal.tipong pinakamahaba na dapat 5 minutes...hehe...Mahilig din ako magscrapbook...gupit gupit ng kung ano - ano...kahit iwan mo ako,basta may mga gamit ako,magsascrapbook ako...Mahilig din ako magbasa,kapag walang ibang tao,kahit anong pwede mabasa,babasahin ko,minsan nga,kahit nabasa ko na,babasahin ko ulit pampaalis lang ng boredom...Mahilig din ako magisip isip ng mga bagay bagay lalo na pag walang ibang tao sa paligid ko...minsan iniisip ko yung mga nangyari sa buhay ko,basta kase sobrang dame na talaga...hindi mo maiimagine na naganap na yung mga yun sa buhay ko...pag ganitong mga pagkakataon,naiisip ko,putcha,ang galing ko pala,nakasurvive pako!!!ganon,basta,madame pa kong ginagawa pag ako lang asa bahay...depende din yun sa mood ko...

Pag sa office,kumain at magsurf ng mga personl something something...although nagagawa namen yun kahit may mga tao,mas masaya kapag ikaw lang talaga ang tao...hehe...tsaka....basta,sikwet!!!

2. What lowers your stress/blood pressure/anxiety level?

Bonding with my friends back in college...sobrang nakakaaliw talaga silang lahat...nawawala talaga yung pagod ko sa mga yun...tapos,texting somebody special and receiving a text from somebody special din,sarap ng feeling nun...feeling mo,okay lang na mastress lage,basta ba lage akong me inspiring words from him,ayos nako...yung ganon...basta,madali lang naman talaga mawala yung stress sakin eh,mababaw kase ako eh,basta mapatawa lang ako,ayos ayos na...chaka bihira lang din ako makaramdam ng kung ano ano level level na yan...hehe...

3. Tag five friends and ask them to post it in theirs.

Mommy Lei,etchos,jayna,paula and anne borja...hehe...

Oo nga pala, medyo nakakalungkot kase nagresign na pala yung isa nameng kabatch...pero alam ko naman na nahirapan din sha magdecide kase nga napamahal na din sa kanya yung mga taong nakasama niya sa work...

Pau,mamimiss ka namen...lalo na kapag nanglilibak tayo ng mga tao...kapag ginagawa nating chat ang outlook na umaabot hanggang sa mga kabatch naten nung NHO training na nasa ibang lupalop,hanngang sa mga foods na kinakain natin,clover bits at kung ano ano pa...basta,mamimiss ka talaga namen...so sad naman at aalis ka na...pero sabe mo nga,you're just a text away lang naman eh...kaya no matter what happens...tuloy lang ang ligaya...

Kay hetty,try mo muna magfile ng leave of absence...baka naman payagan ka pa eh...pag hindi talaga,chaka ka na lang magresign,sayang din naman eh...Pero kung matutuloy ka man,hay naku,mamimiss kita noh...kahit na lage kang di nagpaparamdam samen...pero alam ko naman na ayaw mo din namang gawen yun eh...kelangan mo lang talagang gawen kase mas importante yung bagay na kailangan mong asikasuhin...

Hay...siguro nga ganon lang talaga...we make friends but at one point,we have to let them go...sabe nga ni tito richard bach,""Don't be dismayed at good-byes. A farewell is necessary before you can meet again. And meeting again, after moments or lifetimes,is certain for those who are friends."...totoo yun...kase nga kahit anong mangyare,magkaibigan kayo eh,nothing can ever change that fact...ang drama ko noh...ala lang yan...basta...good luck na lang sateng lahat...hehe...

WhAt Do YoU ThInK?!?!

2005-08-07T07:21:00.000-07:00

it is a well-known fact that virginity is what we, girls, hold as a gem, and once we lose it, there's no going back. there might be surgical procedures in order to be technically a "virgin" again, however, you have already experienced the act of becoming one with a partner, and that basically means you have already lost your virginity -in simple lay men's terms, you've popped the cherry!

but does this conservative outlook still exist in this modern, liberated world?
is virginty still important? or, do you think the same way i do, that it is important only if you think it is? that it is just another way for men to become more "superior" than women? why is it such a shame for girls who are no longer virgins, and such a "cool thing" for men to have done it hundreds of times?
tsk tsk, honestly, i think that virginity is precious, however, i am not against losing it, because i would like to see equality in the world.

what do you think?

dEhyDratEd...

2005-08-04T06:42:00.000-07:00

I am sooo happy these past few days - you can say I am feeling something unexplainable which I myself can't explain...basta,i am looking forward to going to work everyday,especially kase okay yung mga kasama ko sa work...hehe...kahit wala si madam etchos,madame nang nangyare...idagdag pa na maganda ang naging 100th day appraisal ko...(oh,wag na magtanong kung bakit naging maganda ha,basta,alam niyo na yun..hehe),also kase walang mashadong pressure...i can say na i am enjoying my stay na dito sa bagong account ko...yung mga tao,sobrang cool,ang saya!!!!!Sa mga nagwowonder kung bakit dehydrated ang title ng post na ito...well,keep wondering cause i am not going to tell you guys why,sa mga nakakagets,magaling...at sa mga hindi naman,well,ganyan talaga...better luck next time...

Sa mga kasama ko sa account ko ngayon,hehe,salamat ng madame...nageenjoy ako with you guys...basta,atin atin na lang lahat ng kaengotan ko at kalandian ha...hehe...

Wala nako maisip i-post eh...siguro sa susunod na lang talaga yung matino kong post...may hangover pa kase ko eh...right,liza?hehe...basta sa susunod na lang...teka,chocolate break muna...

fEeLiNg bLuE...

2005-07-31T03:11:00.000-07:00

Nagpunta ko kaninang madaling araw sa wake nung namatay kong prof...i was expecting na nandon yung mga classmates ko nung college...shempre excited ako kase makikita ko na sila after four months...tas pagdating ko dun...tada!!!wala ni isa man lang akong kakilala na nandon...turned out,umalis na pala silang lahat...wala lang,mejo nakakahinayang lang on my part kase i was not able to catch up sa mga nangyayare sa kanila...yung tipong lahat sila masaya kase nagkita kita tas ako...hindi!!!I know naman na there would be other time na magkikita kame kaya lang nakakahinayang kase i had the opportunity kaso lang nagkaron ng conflict with the schedule of my work...nakakamiss din kase yung mga friends ko nung college...sila mark,rad,eloi,ekai,bibing,chief- yung pagtambay namen sa freedom park until sabihan na kame ng guard na lumabas na kase magsasara na feu,yung paggawa namen ng thesis nila eloi at ekai,na bago kame gumawa,mega chika at okrayan muna...yung mga biglaang lakad namen nila mama bear,yhummie sa kung saan saan lang,minsan baywalk,intramuros - kahit saang maisipan basta makapaggala...

Hay nakakamiss talaga...lalo na kapag sobrang naging attached ka dun sa mga taong sobrang naging love mo...isipin ko pa nga lang na nagkita kita sila,naiinggit nako eh...ibig sabihin naghasik na naman sila ng kung ano man yun...hehe...wish ko lang...

Sa mga friends ko na nagpatuloy na sa law skewl - rad,bibing,ekai,mama bear at sa iba pa na nagmasters na din - good luck sa inyo,kaya niyo yan...hehe...inuman na alng pag nagkataon!!!sa mga may work na - eloi,chief at sa mga iba ba (hindi ko na kase alam kung sino pa yung iba eh...) keep it up!!!magpapayaman tayo...bwahaha!!!i'm looking forward to seeing you all guys really soon!!!!sobrang namimiss ko na kayo!!!

Pagpasensyahan niyo na ang pagfifeeling feeling blue ko sa post na to...may hang over pa kase ko kaninang madaling araw...basta...magkikita kita din tayo - malapit na yun!!! **wish**wish**

Yipee!!!rest day ko na bukas at chaka sa tuesday...that means tahimik ang floor bukas at walang scribabbles na matutunghayan sila mommy lei at drake!!!sa inyong dalawa,wala na naman po kayong source of fun for two days...alagaan mo si kras drake ha!!! mommy lei,mamimiss kita...see you on wednesday!!!sandaling mamamahinga uli si buding!!!

ReUnIoN?!?!

2005-07-30T06:27:00.000-07:00

i currently don't know how to feel at this point...later after my shift,i'll be seeing my college friends and this gives me the feeling of excitement since i haven't seen them for quite some time...meeting them after a long time means catching up with each other's life and happenings.I'm sure a lot would agree if i say that it is really something to look forward to,ryt?!?!but the sad part is that we'll be seeing each other in one of our professor's wake...ironic,isn't it...

Seeing my college friends make me look back with all that has happened during my college life...though not all events were worth remembering,it somehow contributed to what i am right now...I know i sound too dramatic with what i am writing right now...but honestly,i don't know what i am feeling...maybe this is caused by everything that has pressured me this week,added to the fact that...ugh,never mind...it sucks!!!

One more day to go and it is already my rest day!!!yipee!!!By this, I don't mean to say that i do not enjoy working...but let's face it,sometimes,you would really get sick and tired of what you're doing. In fact,i looooove the people i'm working with,plus you'll be paid quite a good amount...but.....sigh...really,there'll come a point that you'll be seeking for something more...and that is what i am slowly trying to know...

Oops,before i forget...I want to thank madam etchos again for helping me out...i know i've caused you so much headache na...sensha na...hehe!!!i know i owe you so much na...bawi ako sayo next time...malapit na ko makontento sa blog ko...and most of the credit goes to you!!!!love you madam!!!si sir riynanti,gudo at panata,alagaan ha...

Guess this is it for this post...i know its a nonsense kind of crap...i just need to vent it out now...maybe next time i'll be able to post something worth reading!!!i just wish...

ThAnK YoU sOoOo MucH!!!!

2005-07-29T08:19:00.000-07:00

At Last,after so many attempts of redefining my blog,mejo naging lively na sha...and with this, credit goes to my love na love etchos,without his help,kahit na sobrang magkalayo kame,and despite all the nuisance i've caused him,still,he helped me out!!!drake,sobra sobrang thank you talaga!!!a big bear hug for you!!!!**kisses**kisses**

Shempre,thank you din ke arnold,kase he also helped me out...kahit na sobrang kulit ko na,okay lang sa kanya...hehe...ano buh?!?!?

Basta,do watch out sa mga posts ni mommy lei and etchos...i'm sure you wouldn't stop laughing at my stupidities...hehe...at least i admit it,but sometimes lang yun ha...

Drake...salamat ulit ha!!!yung post na to,para sayo and sa lahat ng tumulong for my blog!!!!

Until my next post...just wait and see...

BuDiNg iS Back!!!

2005-07-28T07:05:00.000-07:00

After 2 days of rest and silence,finally Buding is back!!!Well,ang saya talaga pag asa office ka specially kapag okay yung mga kasama mo sa trabaho,yung mga walang kaartehan ba...you get what i mean?!?!?!it's like duuh!!!you know!!!hehe!!!but at the same time,nakakalungkot din kase wala si etchos and mommy lei, which means hindi kumpleto ang tandem nameng tatlo...hay,i can't wait till saturday comes at aatake na naman ang pagkaslow ko...and by the way, may katangahan na naman pala akong ginawa ngayong araw na ito...nakalimutan ko lang naman magpress ng aux code para sa lunch ko...buti na lang at walang calls kundi nagkaabandon ako,patay ako sa sup ko,kay benj...ano ba?!?!?!pramis,kinabahan talaga ko kase napansin ko sha,mga 40 minutes na so naanticipate ko,what if my spike ng calls,lagot!!!buti na lang talaga wala!!!hay,kelan kaya mawawala ang pagkaslow ko nitong mga nakaraang araw...wish ko lang soon na...ano bah?!?!?!

Well,kahit naman may pagkaslow ako nitong mga huling araw,feeling ko naman mabuting tao pa din ako,kase dinalaw ko yung prof ko na naospital...pramis,nakakaawa talaga yung itsura niya...right now,he's gone na...pero para sakin,okay na din yun kesa naman mabuhay nga sha,pero useless na din kase vegetable na...ganun lang talaga siguro,una una lang talaga...

At para sa lahat ng naaliw sa mga kwentong Buding ni etchos,magabang lang kayo kase sobrang dame pa ng scribabbles ni buding ang lalabas...dahil kay Buding,tumataas ang rating ng blog ni etchos...

Hay naku,past 8 na pero isa pa lang din ang calls ko,andame ko na ngang nagawa eh...ganito lang talaga siguro ang buhay call center...miss ko na si etchos,miss ko na si mommy lei...hay...

Oo nga pala,bago ko makalimutan,birthday ng mommy ko ngayon...kaya lang sad to say,wala na sha...antagal na rin palang panahon na wala akong magulang noh...well,kung nasan man sha,sana masaya sha kase masaya nako kahit pano sa buhay ko...wala lang,naalala ko lang bigla...hehe!!!

My sLow dAy...

2005-07-24T05:42:00.000-07:00

Hindi ko alam kung anong meron sa araw na ito at slow ako...Pagpasok na pagpasok ko pa lang sa work,blooper na agad ang nagawa ko...Akala ko yun lang,hindi pala kase simula lang pala yun ng pagkadame dame kong bloopers...at isali pa sa usapan ang kagagahang nagawa ko nang kausap ko ang sup namen...hay naku,siguro nga umepekto na sa akin ang pangpurga na nilagay ni mommy lei at madam etchos sa North Park,pero yum yum pa din sha,pramis!!!Basta,for a more detailed flow of Kim's Scribabbles,watch out for mommy lei and etchos' blog...etchos,big bear hug for you...mommy lei,there's a lot more bloopers to come...just wait and see...